Is it normal to feel mentally impaired the day after dosing MXE ? Yesterday I took some and this morning was still feeling a little bit dissociated when I closed my eyes, that's twelve hours after dosing. It's the afternoon and I still feel a mental "fog".
I've been playing with this compound for the last month but I don't think I get it. I haven't experienced any kind of euphoria from low dosages, just a plain mental blankness which I don't really enjoy. I understand it can feel "anti-depressive" if you want your mind to just shut up, but I don't think that's the same as "euphoria". Mental numbness is the opposite of what I seek in a drug experience.
So I though that maybe if that didn't do it for me, I would up the dose and aim for a more "Psychedelic" experience, which is what got me interested in this in the first place. Well, I can say it was sort of interesting, and somewhat fun, but far from insightful as most people make it out to be. I mean it was as insightful as extreme delusion can be. I spent most of the experience eyes closed, as light seemed to disgust me slightly. I hoped to see the vivid memory mental replay some people rave about, but all I felt a weird sensation of falling indefinitely in tunnel made of cubic rooms. It was amusing, kind of. But I don't think I have taken anything useful from it. When I tried to contemplate my life, everything seemed blurry and distant, not in the way of impossible to recall like on a psychedelic ego death, but more like everything seemed devoid of meaning. I felt a little bit hopeless, actually, but no insight was found, as I couldn't actually think properly. It was very confusing. Not sure what I think about MXE.