Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
is the panic attack like a lightheaded-afraid-i'm-gonna-pass-out feeling? I get that on high doses of MDxx. I never have passed out but I just get afraid that I've taken too much (I'm sensitive to MDxx).
I ate 3g and at the 3 hour mark I was completely out of my body just floating in the cosmos, everything vanished and all I could see was the infinite universe.. I zipped back down with tears in my eyes and asked my buddy if he was experiencing anything similar.. "no, are you ok?" lol... and we were at a drunk beer pong kinda party.. oops.. I immediatly began to freak out and vomit violently and panic and panic and panic some more.. had OEV of mutant/monsters flying from the corners to attack me, so I closed my eyes only to feel/hear my mother crying and asking me why I'm fucking up my life doing so many drugs....... ZANG!! the panic got so much more intense I thought I was going to die... then the sun came up and I left the house to go home and rest.. phew.. safe at last

samadhi_smiles said:so you expect this is a setting issue then? The other times you take methylone were alone late at night, right?
I'm thinking about taking a methylone trip sometime soon...alone I suppose...eh, maybe not...I know what I need to do now (meditate).
5meohd said:I guess my qeustion is mainly for Youkai... how can you handle psychedelics like you do?? how does you inner self not through demons at you to stop the abuse??
wow this is an awesome post thanks for your interesting thoughts seriously.Ximot said:using crack and heroine together with psychedelics is surely an effective way of achieving self-destruction in the fast lane. on top of that i somehow feel that those requiring too manyx uppers/downers along with their psychedelic intake basically cannot handle the psychedelics in the first place and to cover up their discomfort they use uppers/downers. Just a hunch, but I have seen to many go that way to be able to ignore it. Uppers for confidence and downers to be able to get some rest and eliminate the paranoia... one reason I don't pverly indulge in psychedelics is my own inability to always take it without being shaken to my core and more likely to be using uppers/downers later to feel better again.
what is this stuff? how close is it to e?
PS. I was not sure where to post this one, here or the ecstasy forum..