Last night started with 112.5mcg (give or take) and then redosed another 150mcg 2 hours in, the redose came on very fast and don't think too much was lost to tolerance (if any at all) as the OEV's were much more pronounced than 300mcg off the bat a couple weeks ago, the visuals were quite fractured/jerky on the onset, pulling one way, then the other way, not as flowing/wavy as psilocybin, there were times where moments would rewind and then play back again which is a very strange thing to witness, especially when it felt like i could control it
I smoked cannabis throughout this time with no issues, last time after smoking heavily on the peak the traditional momentary psychedelic fear combined with 'RC fear' really had me going for a minute but this time i knew it was safe as, i found all the hallmarks of a psychedelic that stretches mentally imposed limits were there but the stability of the euphoric push of it just keeps things moving along, on psilocybin one could potentially dwell in mindstates for longer so that you have to work harder to pull yourself out of it, whereas this pulls you out of it and pushes it all along by itself
The CEV's were incredible, i don't really trip for visuals but they were so inextricably connected to emotions and so encompassing it was truly beautiful, fractals that built until they made me gasp out loud
I found the CEV's responded to emotions that the music evokes not just any old sounds playing, it's like if i didn't get into it and feel it then nothing happened, if i expected to see something i wouldn't see much or would see incoherent visuals, but when i let go of mental expectations and just felt things out it all sprung into life in a beautiful way
After the OEV's mostly wore off i had the impression it was all winding down but once adjusted it was going strong for a few hours after, i really felt like that's where the trip actually set in and truly peaked for me, kinda like psilocybin where after the fast onset it all calms down and becomes clear, if anything i find the strong OEV's are still part of the come up/defragmentation process
In the latter stages where the OEV's were waning i had an insatiable urge for self scrutinization, on psychedelics at times it can be easy to slip into dreamy states where you're not really pushing yourself with therapeutic intent but i was so on the ball it was great, the fundamental things i was reflecting on were letting go into love and honoring the experience, not letting it be a passing thing but integrating it, so much love...
I really do love the come down as it's so clean & clear, i find it such a shame so many people have a fear of psychedelics, today being new years day with half the worlds population hungover i find it really weird that people use alcohol so much when in comparison to psychedelics it's the one of the most sloppy intoxicating unfulfilling drug experiences there is, at least that's what i've found, i've felt strong empathy on alcohol but only for very short moments followed by feeling sick, whereas last night i had such great experiences, so much fun, personal revelations, and immense empathy that lead to a desire to be a better person, and i awoke today so refreshed, no other drugs can even come close to psychedelics!!!
I ate some food towards the end and it was like i could sense it moving into my large intestine which was interesting, then having a big meal at the very end was great and i felt so nourished, like last time i had a strong urge to megadose on the peak, i think next time will be 450mcg, then 750, much more time will be spent laying in bed with eyes closed as i think going into the CEV's during the peak of the visual activity will be much better than watching the OEV's which are really just amusingly suprising, the disorientation gives you something to work with but the CEV's are majestic and more thorough in their affect, will also get more classical music (suggestions?) into my playlist as strings sounded so beautiful and at times really contributed to a contemplative mindset
So glad that i came across this stuff just in time before the ban, THANKYOU!!!