Jakeperson
Bluelighter
Hehe this sounds a bit contradictory here. I love these somewhat random posts that get tossed into the psychedelic threads about stuff like this.
Well I think I get the point, you are not the creator, but a creator or maybe better put an extension of the creator that is connected to it all. I think I had some of the god delusions a few weeks ago from MXE and tryptamines... thinking I was the central point of the universe and somehow my actions were essential to the continuation of existence. Restated, that if I stopped (died) it would all stop.
Perhaps this and what you describe is just the confusion of death from blocking the NMDA system? The tripper is clearly alive but their mind beginning to mimic the perception of death, without totally pushing the button? Sounds similar to what people report for K sometimes with "near death" experiences where they see their self die.
Anyways 3-MeO-PCP sounds pretty interesting, I'll have to try it soon!
Qft