You mean benzos have non-recreational uses? Well Ill be damned. What a novel concept! Imagine me saying that in a thick Texan drawl. A classic Kentucky accent that them there folks out it the hills all be talkin like.... you best be watching yourself son. City boy like you might get mistook for a large game or some't ... and my daddy aint in the habit of thinking 'fore he shoots is all. Is that damn oxy I tells ya.... give me my buds anyday..... but like it or not its the way of the future. Where all the money be at.
lol sorry Im deep into season 2 of Justified. For the initiated it stars Olyphant as a US Marshall sent home to the Kentucky office after getting a little trigger happy with a crim in Miami. Turns out ol' Marshall Gibbens has more of Kentucky running through his veins than he cares to acknowledge.... Olyphant makes the show of course (think Deadwood).... hes the sort of actor that has the ability to keep anyone transfixed on his character, hetero or otherwise (well I hope so anyway 'cos I have his poster on my wall now and hes my computer desktop background. Thats normal right? RIIIGHT?).
lol just kidding. Great show though. Its no classic like you might get on HBO like the Sopranos, The Wire, Deadwood, Game of Thrones or whatever, but it a worthy time waster. Think the doco The Wonderful Whites of West Virginia fleshed out into a dramatized TV series and youre on the right track.
Ok the fuck what was the point of this post? Oh yeah.... I was being a dickhead. Sorry guys.
Fuck me though, 5mg zanny bars would be mental. Imagine all the ravers knocking those back on a sat/sun morning. Of course some fuckin hero wearing a muscle shirt (or lets face it, what shirt

lol) would begin swalling 2 5mg zannie bars while saving a few to ease back into the working week. Dude would be a FUCKING WRECK in 2 weeks or less. Hed be doing 5mg in the morning then 5mg at night to chill out and watch wheel of fortune. Then hes doing 5mg in the am, 5mg in his lunch break then 5mg at night....
Then he runs out and suddenly he has a daily 15mg alprazolam habit. Hell cold turkey it for a couple days 'cos hes a tough nigga. Next thing he know hes lying in the fetal position just totally FUCKED. Texting everyone he knows trying to score some more xanax. Not a pretty scene.
Dont get me wrong though.. I fucking love alprazolam. But Ive learnt no more than 2 * 1mg pills a day. Look forward to them. Saviour them. Be SMART. And shock horror, having 0.5mg instead of 1mg can work great. Absolutely. I have a natural aversion to moderation for some reason.... something to do with Im feeling rad, and I have more of the stuff that made me feel rad in my desk drawer then fuck it. Im having more. Moderation always seems so grown up and boring as fuck....... but honestly its a case by case basis. If were talking getting 3 scoops of peanut butter chocolate in a waffle cone but your sensibility and grown-up moderating mindset tells you to get 1 scoop in a rfucking regular cone. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO guess what.... thats not gonna get the juices flowing..... that aint gonna get your anticipatory adrenalin pumping, so screw it, get the triple scoop in the waffle, love the shit out of it and be happy.
But if youre as smart as you think you are then a couple of tough lessons learned with benzos are quite literally invaluable. They can change your life... not in an instant but inch by inch youll nudge yourself onto a different path, and the worst thing is that path isnt necessarily the cliche path of doing anything and everything it takes to get hold of them. ie. the stereo typical drug user who will sell his dads left nut for a fix then apologise profusely later. Sure it ight get to that, but benzos are pretty fucking easy to get hold of. No the real danger is the subtle shift in self perception that is the result of the brain not producing enough gaba.... and consequnetly affecting your decision making ( lack thereof). Suddenly your general roe-of-the-mill anxietey is through the roof and your avoidant behaviour and tendencies are back in full force. Youre skipping social engagements and work opportunities because youre in total freak out mode. And shit just goes down the toilet.
So you may not be breaking into houses to steal TVs to pawn for the your weekly H fix, but whos to say the situation you find yourself in is any different? But thats a conversation for another time I think. Ready for bed and this post is way too long.... fucjing fingers just wont stop tonight.