So I know some people sorta poo poo temazepam as being kinda weak and boring. I place myself in that camp to be honest. I managed to get myself a script of 25 on the weekend and decided to follow up a codeine session (watching a long movie) with 50mg (5 pills)... actually before that I had 3 to chill. So another 5 with the movie and later that night I had to go to dinner with my mum and her boyfriend for mothers day (not to mention it was her birthday too so there was no getting out of it). The thing is I wasnt really looking forward to as it was just gonna be the 3 of us this year and although I get along well enough with her boyfriend he gets on my nerves a bit. He in sales and I find his constant pandering to everyone else really fucking grating. Its like fuck mate just be your fucking self and lets talk some shit or make some jokes.
Anyway I wasnt looking forward to it so I dropped another 4 temaz on the way. That made 120mg for the day. Although my benzo tolerance is kinda up there (aplraz mostly) combined with the couple of scotches I had at home then at dinner I kinda found myself 3/4 the way up benzo street and talking enough shit to fill a sewage plant. Now Im a pretty witty guy (if I do say so myself) and when Im on a roll my filter just disappears and whatever I find will amuse myself usually just pops out. If I had a buddy or two there I know Id be getting rad laughs... I just know it (really, *I hope), but being the only one (my aunt showed up luckily) all I did was make a fool out of myself.
I think. I cant remember the entire the fucking evening. It was like a weird dream where I took a back seat to myself and just watched myself go.... except it wasnt the backseat of a sedan, rather the back seat of a Greyhound bus.
I woke up the next day confused as a rabbit not knowing who/what/where the fuck I was, who I was & what happened the night before. It TRULY felt like a dream that I had had. Anyway, would have been fine but the company I was with were "grown-ups" (you know what I mean.... Im 30 but dont consider myself a grown up... fuck that
), so consequently the waves of anxiety hit like a tonne of fucking bricks. Had I been with a group of buddies or even alone watching a movie or gaming or something all would have been good. But that feeling of total discombobulation and confusion and fear and embarrassment was just almost unbearable. Then I had to work at 2 that day.... it would have been fine if I could have got up had a coffee and hit work but no I had to wait the fuck around all day freaking out THEN go to work.
The worst thing was yesterday when I had eventually started to put the thing behind me mum tells me that I was really out of line on sunday night and I came across quite drunk and that my auntie wasnt impressed at my one-liners pertaining to my cousin (her daughter) who sustained a head injury after being in a hit and run a couple of years ago. That just really wrecked me. For one I was adamant to mum that I wasnt drunk, however that said I couldnt remember what I said to my auntie, and yeah Ill totally apologise but fuck what did I say!?
Point of the story? Nothing really. Just another respect the benzos anecdote. And more specifically temazepam can be some fun you just need high doses, which I guess the majority of people in this thread kinda realise anyway.
Actually the main point to the story is dont abuse benzos out at dinner with your straight edged family!! Stlight abuse yeah, but keep shit within the bounds of your tolerance. 20-30mg diazepam, or 2-4mg alpraz and I would have been fine.
Just be smart people!
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