Shadow,
I don't know where to begin.
I want to say, first of all, I hear you on the sobriety and the completely foreign (and unappealing!!) thought of not having drugs in my system. In my case, I was (over)using oxy for over 2 years straight. My last dose was Christmas Day. I have had the fortitude not to turn to the street (like I did EVERY month several times a month for over a year... Yeah $$$$$). BUT. With my scripts coming up due in less than week, I don't know what to do. They are very hard to
Use sparingly.... IDK if I can, or want to, frankly. But OMG this has been the most long, drawn out, ungodly WD I've ever had and I don't want to go through that again.
In other news, the past few days I tried lyrica. On the advise of many people here on BL. Well I have to say it made me high as a kite. As in, I couldn't even get behind the wheel. Lol . It's easier to forget the opiates when your high on something else. Even mildly.
However, if opiates are your DOC, I don't think you'd like Coke. Most people don't find Coke as addictive as opiates, (the comedowns a bitch) but for people w addictive personalities... Yeah.
Give it another week. Stay off H another 7 days. You will feel more like your old self and less like a worthless zombie going through the motions.
And, with respect, stop the pity party, and get out there and find work. It's out there. Use this opportunity to find a better job than you had. Pro tip: don't go to your interview high or spun.
Good luck, bud. I'm pulling for you. I know deeply the allure of opiates