Hi everybody, this is my very first post on BL, although I've been a reader for some time now. I've now come to have a question, and due to the unique nature thereof, I think I need to ask it directly.
But first a little background-
I've been doing opiates/oids on and off for a couple years now. Every time after I make it a daily habit for 1 to 3 months, I always stop, go through withdrawals (they usually last between 3 and 7 days), and abstain from using for a month, or two, or sometimes even three. After that period I always seem to find my way back to them though. I start using maybe once or twice a month, which then escalates to once a week, two times a week, etc.. After awhile, though, it always escalates to daily use.
I've been on one of those "daily use" periods again, this time with Opana (oxymorphone) for about two months, with a daily use (insufflated), of 60-80mg. When I decided it was time to quit, a friend of mine suggested that I use Suboxone to ease off withdrawals. He made them out to be a quasi-magic pill, which I (naively) believed.
So, upon experiencing my first sign of withdrawals this time, I took the whole 8mg pill, sublingualy. It killed the worst of my w/d's, so I decided to learn more about it (I know, I should have looked first). I went onto this BL megathread, and learned about what it was. I didn't like the idea of tapering and everything, so afterwards I decided not to re-dose and just tough out the rest the old-fashioned way. My last dose of Opana was 7 days ago. My first dose of suboxone was 6 days ago, and then (as I said) I stopped. My w/d's persisted, and since I have school work to do, absolutely needed to sleep, and just felt overall bad, I decided 2 days ago to take 4mg sublingualy. I felt GREAT; no w/d's, I was able to function completely normally, sleep, do work, etc. One day ago I insuffliated 2mg, and today another 2mg.
Okay so now to my question-
I want to get this thing over with. If I just stop taking the Suboxone now, will I continue experiencing w/d's because I took these three Sub doses; i.e. will they return? I still have two 8mg pills left, but like I said, I just want this to be over and done with. However, I really don't want to withdraw anymore because of its ill side effects (sleep mostly, and profuse sweating, hot/cold flashes). Should I continue to taper with Sub, going down to 1mg or something for a few more days and then jump? If I do cease use of Sub tomorrow (since it's past 12 I suppose it's today), and my w/d's come back, how much longer does everyone think they will persist? If I were to taper to 1mg or less, will it ease the whole experience? I'm really lost here and I need help; I want to function normally enough to be able to do school, but I don't really want to keep on doing Subs, but if I have to so be it. Any advice will be really really appreciated! Thank You!
Tim