I think I'm almost ready to quit again. Everyone around me has been pushing me and while I may not know much I DO know that *I* have to be the one to decide I want to quit; if I'm being forced to do it then I will almost certainly relapse again.
A few weeks ago, I sat and I seriously contemplated suicide. I thought that that might be easier than dealing with everything and everyone. I know, now, thinking with a clear head that that's a selfish and ridiculous choice. Between my spirituality, long walks, meditating and talking to those around me with 100% honesty, I've really been maintaining a good mental state. I'm playing with my daughter, I'm cooking for my family, I actually want to get out of the house. I feel like that this will be positive when I jump again.
Yes, I'm still using. But I'm preparing myself to stop and I think I'm almost there.
I hope all you good lookin' people are doing well!
A few weeks ago, I sat and I seriously contemplated suicide. I thought that that might be easier than dealing with everything and everyone. I know, now, thinking with a clear head that that's a selfish and ridiculous choice. Between my spirituality, long walks, meditating and talking to those around me with 100% honesty, I've really been maintaining a good mental state. I'm playing with my daughter, I'm cooking for my family, I actually want to get out of the house. I feel like that this will be positive when I jump again.
Yes, I'm still using. But I'm preparing myself to stop and I think I'm almost there.
I hope all you good lookin' people are doing well!