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Self-harm support thread v. 3

Tomorrow I get the joy of talking about it.

Between that and the fact i wake up sweating cold thinking about heroin, I'm pretty fucking spent man. I don't know why shit comes in heaps but it does. :(
 
bennyZA said:
I'd really love to talk about this, but its 37 pages deep so its hard to understand the discussion. Is there any way to break this thread and start a new one
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Hi benny, welcome to the thread.
We generally just keep this thread going until it reaches about 1,000 posts, then we start a new one. But please feel free to post your question(s) or comments in this one and we can take it from there :)
 
I don't spend much time posting in TDS, and today I think I'd like to change that.

So I am officially volunteering any and all time available I have here @ Bluelight in the hopes of preventing suicide, self harm, or anything else of such nature. Or even if you're just feeling blue and need someone to talk to.

Of course, I will not post my phone number or any personal information here publicly, but if anyone needs support of ANY kind, send me a PM and if I am online(which I have been more of lately) you will get my personal phone number immediately.

I am 100% serious here and will copy/paste this in the suicide thread as well.

I very much hope no one ever has to contact me in this way, but I am more than willing to do whatever I can if someone does.

With Love and Respect <3
-d_9
 
On behalf of everyone in TDS, thank you d_9. We appreciate any and all contributions. Much love <3 :)
 
Just goes to prove that you can get through difficult emotions without self-harm :) <3
 
yeh man, i honestly never even grasped this and then got clean within 2 days i was at , couple months later willingly admitted it was spiral out of control. Been using methods from therapy and while it's never fun, i hate the experience, every battle won gives you back more control. :)
 
Another day , therapy done , not a cut. This thread is SO helpful to be able to check in. Jesus this shit scared me i never had such a seductive addiction , always there for me. Support w/this is critical.
 
theartofwar said:
Another day , therapy done , not a cut. This thread is SO helpful to be able to check in. Jesus this shit scared me i never had such a seductive addiction , always there for me. Support w/this is critical.
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This is so true man, and the very reason this thread even exists :)
So good to hear you didn't cut today, keep up the good work taow, stay strong <3
 
Are keloids pretty much impossible to get rid of? I have a couple on my arm from 3 yrs ago that I've given up hope of erasing, but still. I wish they weren't there. I don't even think of my arms being maimed in scars and when people look at me funny, I wonder why.
 
therapy is gonna start to become easier in the sense we are not still stuck on childhood rape, I've fully accepted that was NOT my fault. With that truly understood I'm able to work on personality strengths and weaknesses with a clearer head - ptsd - etc , without the shame or guilt. Still not a cut or burn, I'm always going to be aware of how much of a part of me this is and always stay open to never go down the road again. Thanks for the support, this thread has been a huge huge help - I know no one is going to judge on me.
 
I've had a HUGE talk with my so & my mother. My so was handed my blade & he has disposed of it. His mum is supporting me too.

As part of me getting better I have been apologizing to everyone in my life for the pain I've caused. Several people asked why & were proud of me when I explained.


I feel this is a turning point in my life. Bring on the world, today I can handle it.
 
i havent posted on here for ages, and for awhile i thought i was doing better.
I changed a lot of my friendships and things started to look better,, but one of my new good friends has recently told me she cuts, quite badly too..
and although i thought i was completely over cutting and burning, tonight for some reason, just nothing is working for me and the only thing that seems as if it would help is to cut.
i really dont want to but i dont know how to stop this horrible feeling of wanting to cut soo badly.
i just dont know what to do anymore...
 
^ Butterfly, I understand the triggers all too well. For me they are different but please do your best to stay BUSY today , not with those that will trigger. I've found that idle hands and a spinning mind are my WORST enemies in this war. Please stay strong !!

Personally, over a week with no cuts or burns. I am genuinely proud of this, It's a pride without an ego, just one that builds self confidence in the fact that even during difficult times I CAN make it... staying open ... staying true... these are the hardest things for me. I've had a lot of problems w/pain in the past from abuse / rape - I think cutting was my own way to curl into a ball and escape from the reality I HAD to move on... That's why it was so humiliating for me to come forward and admit my problem. Thanks again who have helped. It was eating me alive and the damage was becoming serious and suicidal thoughts were floating around when I wanted nothing to do with them. Thank you.
 
theartofwar said:
^ Butterfly, I understand the triggers all too well. For me they are different but please do your best to stay BUSY today , not with those that will trigger. I've found that idle hands and a spinning mind are my WORST enemies in this war. Please stay strong !!

Personally, over a week with no cuts or burns. I am genuinely proud of this, It's a pride without an ego, just one that builds self confidence in the fact that even during difficult times I CAN make it... staying open ... staying true... these are the hardest things for me. I've had a lot of problems w/pain in the past from abuse / rape - I think cutting was my own way to curl into a ball and escape from the reality I HAD to move on... That's why it was so humiliating for me to come forward and admit my problem. Thanks again who have helped. It was eating me alive and the damage was becoming serious and suicidal thoughts were floating around when I wanted nothing to do with them. Thank you.
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I am proud for you too man!
 
theartofwar said:
^ Butterfly, I understand the triggers all too well. For me they are different but please do your best to stay BUSY today , not with those that will trigger. I've found that idle hands and a spinning mind are my WORST enemies in this war. Please stay strong !!
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thanks theartofwar,,, sadly i cut pretty bad last night and tonight isnt looking any better. it seems ive gone back to my old patterns of not eating, sleeping and now cutting. all day i was craving the feeling of cutting and im sure as soon as everyone goes to bed tonight ill end up cutting again.

so proud of you theartofwar though!! thats great to hear... hopefully ill be able to be proud of myself again, sometime.
 
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