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Self-harm support thread v. 3

TINK said:
This is a great website
http://www.helpguide.org/mental/self_injury.htm

Just thought I would share it. It has helped me alot. This is also a great site to send a loved one to so they can learn about what you may be going through and how to help.

Feel free to PM if you need anyone to talk to.
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This is a really good resource TINK, thank you for sharing it.

I hope this helps clear up some misconceptions about self-harm.
 
I didn't wanna post this here since it's so public, but I think if I do maybe I'll feel better about it: cut myself for the first time in 3+ years tonight, in a very visible location. I'm very very angry and upset with myself over it, but have a counselor appointment tomorrow at least. Maybe seeing this typed up somewhere will remind me that it was just a slip-up and won't happen again hopefully :(
 
purple_cloud said:
I didn't wanna post this here since it's so public, but I think if I do maybe I'll feel better about it: cut myself for the first time in 3+ years tonight, in a very visible location. I'm very very angry and upset with myself over it, but have a counselor appointment tomorrow at least. Maybe seeing this typed up somewhere will remind me that it was just a slip-up and won't happen again hopefully :(
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*Hugs* Let me know if you need someone to talk to <3
 
TINK said:
*Hugs* Let me know if you need someone to talk to <3
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Thanks TINK, now I'm just angry at myself about it. It had something to do with pain...I've been in physical pain from re-tearing my already herniated to the point of extrustion lumbar disc...the muscles have been tightly spasmed and I've been in pretty much constant pain since Wednesday, not really leaving the apartment since walking/sitting is so painful, didn't take any pain medication today but took a hot shower, which seemed to loosen the spasm up. It seemed like all my emotions since Wednesday poured out, and I did it...now that physical pain is around, the mental pain is pushed aside in some ways...hard to explain but there's gotta be something to it.
 
I suffer from chronic pain as well, so I totally understand. Chronic pain in me will eventually manifest in a ball of raw emotions waiting to explode.
 
purple_cloud said:
It seemed like all my emotions since Wednesday poured out, and I did it...now that physical pain is around, the mental pain is pushed aside in some ways...hard to explain but there's gotta be something to it.
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I totally understand this hun.
I'm sorry you're in such a bad place at the moment. When are you able to get your pain sorted out? Have you got any specialist appointments booked or anything? What about meds?
Good luck with the counsellor, let us know how you're doing okay? <3
 
n3ophy7e said:
I totally understand this hun.
I'm sorry you're in such a bad place at the moment. When are you able to get your pain sorted out? Have you got any specialist appointments booked or anything? What about meds?
Good luck with the counsellor, let us know how you're doing okay? <3
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There isn't much I can do for back pain unless I wanna take opiates constantly, which I don't...I've just been surviving on ibuprofen and am seeing the chiropractor again within the hour. My psych nurse also just gave me a prescription for trazodone for sleep, and it says on it that it helps with pain? No idea if it will or not. I saw my counselor today and talked to her about the cutting...now I just feel really embarrassed and humiliated that I did it, but I'm hoping those feelings are enough to prevent me from doing it again. She didn't treat me any differently when I told her either, and we talked about things I can do in the future if I feel really overwhelmed again. She told me that by "telling someone" it won't be a secret and it may lower my desire to do it again, so I think I was right by posting in here last night. I'm glad I did, TINK's immediate response actually made me feel better. And n3o, you are seriously superwoman or something :) <3
 
It sounds like you have an excellent counsellor p_c, that is quite a rare thing so you are lucky! <3
She is right, and I agree that you did the right thing by posting in here. That's what this thread is here for, after all :)
I remember feeling all those awful emotions after cutting as well hun. It just makes it all feel so much worse huh! Not fair. Hopefully you can indeed use those emotions to make you choose more effective ways of coping when you're feeling overwhelmed. And you know that both Tink and I (and others here as well) are always around if you need to chat at any time <3
Good luck with the chiropractor, I hope you get some much needed relief :)
 
P_C - I am so glad you talked to her about it. That is a great step. If you ever want to talk about non-opiate pain relief tricks PM me, been suffering for over 15 years. Or if you want to talk about anything, just let me know <3
 
The scars do fade with time. Neosporin applied regularily does help to fade them.

Not a day goes by that I don't regret doing this to myself though. I got nothing out of it. And everybody asks about it. My answer: usually, "I had a fucked up life." I leave it at that.
 
wow this might sound ignorant but i thought i was the only guy that cuts. i havent done it for almost a year, i dont think ill do it anymore. the scaring is to much and im WAY to embarrased to not wear long sleeves. like even with the worst track marks i would where t-shirts and not care, but these scars are like a whole other level :(
 
treesmin said:
wow this might sound ignorant but i thought i was the only guy that cuts.
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No you're definitely not the only guy, don't worry <3
That is so great to hear that you've not cut for nearly 12 months, that is a huge achievment and you should be really proud of yourself :)

TINK said:
I am curious, was I the only one that did cut my arms?
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Did you mean did not? I'm not sure hun, but I'm guessing that somewhere out there, there is someone else who didn't cut their arms :)
 
thanx for the kind words n3ophy7e :) it made me happy to read that.


ive tried bio-oil and liquid vitamin e for almost a year with very little success i dont think they will ever go away seeing how there like a cm across and kinda
bulge out :(
 
^^ I'm the same treesmin, I've used Bio-Oil on and off for a couple of years. I found that it's helped a bit, but it's hard to tell because they fade soooo gradually. And for the really big scars it kinda makes sense that it's going to take years for them to heal over.
If you can be bothered, and if you can afford it, just keep going with the Bio-Oil because even if it doesn't clear your scars up completely, it's just really nice for your skin in general anyway :)
 
treesmin said:
thanx for the kind words n3ophy7e :) it made me happy to read that.


ive tried bio-oil and liquid vitamin e for almost a year with very little success i dont think they will ever go away seeing how there like a cm across and kinda
bulge out :(
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I have a four inch long scar from surgery (not self-harm) and I have been taking care of it for a while. Eventually you'll see improvements. :)
 
Yeah n3o I meant I didn't cut my arms. I cut other areas.

Also I was not only a cutter but I would purposely physically hurt myself other than cutting. Like if my father had beat me and made a bruise on my right shoulder then I would make a matching one on the left side.

OMG.... I just realized, I have never said that to anyone. I always just said I was a self injurer, everyone assumed it was just cutting so I never elaborated.
 
*massive hugs for TINK* <3
Thanks for sharing that with us hun, it takes courage to share this kinda stuff with others <3 :)
 
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