Random MSN Gibberings XCII - Speaking of a cacophony, suck my cacophocock!

[thecamelduluxe]

It's hard to toe the line between perceived bossiness, nosiness, compassion and concern in these situations, so I hope everything works out well for you, it's not easy!

 

[Allein]

That's not good at all Albion my deepest sympathy with him, I trust he is getting the follow up care and treatment that he must need, the system so often fails once people are back on he street IME he, or someone else mat well need top pursue treatment to ensure he gets it.

I've never crossed the line from ideation to action and its impossible to know here that line is but he must have been in a dark place to have gone that far, I doubt anyone could have helped him at that point without medical intervention so don't go feeling any guilt that just adds to the woes of the world. He's told you the truth now so you must be very special to him.

But to put it bluntly I hope he is dealing with his shit now, with professional support, Having re-read your post do you mean he has already cut, now previously and now he's hitting dangerous drug combos, if that's the case he really shouldn't be on the street. I found secure care was a massive relief, they do all they can to ensure you don't do anything pointless and at least start the process of trying to get you back on track.

 

[breakcorefiend]

Morning all, off to work for the first time this week, can't say im too excited to be going back!

Ahh well, s'all good, only two days till the weekend

 

[Allein]

I've been of now for (I think) 5 weeks, I start my new job on Monday, TBH can't wait I'm not good at being at home and the last 2 weeks I've done loads of childcare and house work .......time to get back to my normal routine I wasn't destined to be a house husband :D

 

[Myshkin]

You're getting into the role, atm, and you love it. Don't lie.

Must be exciting though, only two weeks to go and that. I'll bet those weeks will fly by and you'll be straight in at the deep end before you know it.

And a good morning to the rest of the morning crew.

 

[Albion]

That's not good at all Albion my deepest sympathy with him, I trust he is getting the follow up care and treatment that he must need, the system so often fails once people are back on he street IME he, or someone else mat well need top pursue treatment to ensure he gets it.

I've never crossed the line from ideation to action and its impossible to know here that line is but he must have been in a dark place to have gone that far, I doubt anyone could have helped him at that point without medical intervention so don't go feeling any guilt that just adds to the woes of the world. He's told you the truth now so you must be very special to him.

But to put it bluntly I hope he is dealing with his shit now, with professional support, Having re-read your post do you mean he has already cut, now previously and now he's hitting dangerous drug combos, if that's the case he really shouldn't be on the street. I found secure care was a massive relief, they do all they can to ensure you don't do anything pointless and at least start the process of trying to get you back on track.

His mother took him to the Priory (big famous rehab clinic thing), for his drug abuse (not the depression). The psychiatrist said that he was in fact addicted to addiction itself. He was actually referred to a Buddhist centre, which he has been to and says helps. Buddhism is something I'm very curious about and I'll be going with him to his next meditation session ('mindfulness' *ugh*).

He is as much of a drugs pig as he ever was, but he's on amitriptyline now and feels much better for it. The amitriptyline also gives him swirly closed-eye visuals at night when he sleeps, which he loves. There were also girlfriend issues involved around the time of the incident...I know he tried a few times, but that's all he's willing to tell me and that's all I can bear to hear tbh.

The reckless drugs combo he had night before last was not any act of self-harm, just an act of ignoring my (insistent) warnings about drinking after the afternoon of etiz & opiates we'd had.

You seem like a nice, sensitive guy Albion. Much to you your friend is lucky to have you there to care.

Thank you, pontifex

 

[effie]

No gibberings posts for 8 HOURS?

Now I've said that I don't have anything interesting to add. Food'n'diaz coma %)

 

[koneko]

No gibberings posts for 8 HOURS?

Now I've said that I don't have anything interesting to add. Food'n'diaz coma %)

It's bloody shocking, should be making BL front page news....EADD too stuffed and zombie-bombed to gibber!

Someone get the stims out 8) *shakes eadd awake*

 

[breakcorefiend]

hahaha, the day i go back to work the gibbering thread dies! just noticed my post count! lol

 

[koneko]

Put breakcore back to work and the content of gibberings shit decreases massively...does that mean all you do is talk shit? :D

What is it you do for money my dear?

How you feeling?

 

[digitalpgs]

Off to tesco now to see if I can get some sominex now, got a long day ahead of me tomorrow, probably not gonna get a wink of sleep otherwise as I am feeling like a big kid again

Shame the only benzos I have are xanax which I would like to save and valium, pretty sure there is nuclear fallout with less halflife than that stuff has in me.

Will go when this woodpecker stops knocking on my back window, spying on it

 

[ColtDan]

 

[Marmalade]

Off to tesco now to see if I can get some sominex

if you can be arsed, please report back about price of thee above and whether it's OTC or on shelf. I want to try some so I can avoid zopiclone completely in future.

Sominex and melatonin will probably be enough I think. currently i'm mainly sticking to melatonin and havent had zop for a while, but I could do with just a little extra when using stims if poss.

 

[koneko]

Sominex is pricey round here at the indie-pharm its' £4.95. It stops working pretty quickly I've found too so not such a great buy, really must get some melatonin in.

Pity I cannot have benzos ...that'll teach me

Dan I you xxx

 

[TheSpade]

Just been involved in the worlds biggest water fight, officially it's not sposed to start until tomorrow but everyone obviously fancied kicking off early. I went out for lunch and got ice water thrown on me, squirted with water pistols and buckets of cold water poured over my head. Luckily my phone etc didn't get ruined. Got a nice wee water proof pouch now. Streets are far too busy tho you cannot move in some areas. It goes on for the next 3 days (longer in other parts of Thailand) and it might get a bit tedious after a while but tomorrow should at least be fun. I just hope it's not going on Monday still as my visa expires and I need to fly to Cambodia, I've seen so many peopel turning up to BKK today with their bags and getting soaked. Everything in the bag will be soaking too. They look well pissed off.

 

[Marmalade]

@ kate: I'm not a benzo fan either kate. I liked bupe a few times, but in reality, after a number of tries I dont really like it that much

every benzo or opioid Ive tried really does nothing for me. I'm not sure if this is because Ive favoured stims for so long ... whether its physiological or psychological .. possibly more the latter and mind over matter, dunno .. I don't like sedation. i think i prefer either sleep or being awake and stimmed ( I think I mainly only ever try benzos or opioid as sleep aids tho). I don't want to be awake and half sedated. still trying to work out the logic behind it

tried nitrazapam and it didn't touch me. tried etiz in various dosages and it doesn't touch me, not as a sleep aid anyways, which is possibly not what they're really good for .. although I've just ordered some more etiz to give it another go (I'm confident the original source was decent quality, so it's not due to that)

 

[koneko]

^^
Sounds brilliant fun Spade - buy a sooper-soaker and get out there! %) ...we want pics btw

@ Marmalade - as per my usual I didn't communicate that very well through this hellish, for people like me who are all oral (stop sniggering up the back please) in terms of communication, i also windmill with my hands and move about too much - for a forum format. Well I had a problem with benzos there for about a year. Hence why I can't touch em' any more for lolz and yeh I did learn how to "play" with them. Xanax was my torturer...alas that affair is all over now. Oh and I got benzo "caught" via another addiction- you gotta love how they cascade

Pleased to say I'm on day 10 of no-smoking - another lil addiction goes to the wall

Good evening Marmz, EADD, do I witter on or what...

 

[Marmalade]

I'm a neurotic that likes to think (so stims are ace ... and nootropics like Piracetam) ... and if i can't think, I'd rather be sleeping ... I love sleeping tons n tons ... I really dont understand the pleasantly nodding situation. my only non-neurotic state of being is being pleasantly psyched, and I LOVE that more than anything else ( catered for by shrooms, and occasional mdma ... & hopefully DMT soon)

I need to learn a good in between balance. which is currently covered by alcohol. which i unfortunately love too much. I love red wine too, but Chilean anything seems to make me gag unfortunately. seems too vinegarish no matter what grape or brand I try. maybe that's because I'm only a £4.99 or 'whutever's on special' gurl (or anything new world Australian, or old world french .... and if that sounds like i think I know wine, I really don't, i just know Tesco discount varieties ... [edit] where's Louloureed when ya need 'im?)


++++ for the stopping smoking ... awesome stuff. I'm pretty much left turning in circles without a little crutch to lean on, esp when I'm on a health kick .. always have to have a little something there, no matter what I'm trying to avoid.

[edit]
I didn't like the new Spiritualized album ( ... I'll buy it anyway though)

 

[digitalpgs]

if you can be arsed, please report back about price of thee above and whether it's OTC or on shelf. I want to try some so I can avoid zopiclone completely in future.

£3.55 for 8 of the one per nights OTC at the pharmacy, the only ones on the shelf are the herbal ones and they are like swallowing two little pill sized farts

 

[koneko]

I didn't like the new Spiritualized album ( ... I'll buy it anyway though)

Aye but that's what it's like isn't it with Spiritualized? - its all a bit too uncomfortable and unfamiliar at first...anything to get you out of your comfort zone before reeling you in :D I love jason, he's an artist of more than music.

I will also buy after free-loading and pay uber gig ticket prices also = all worth it.

Being neurotic's great innit

Ack stop buying cheap wine! My budget chillean bottle tonight was discounted at £7.99, best for a wee treat too, there's no way i could keep up a booze crutch at those and usual cost prices of my fav tipples. Coping crutches are ten a penny tho' plenty to chose from, the cheapest and easiest being the "breathing" malarkey called meditation. However that's somewhat un-hip chic in certain circles 8)

More importantly what's happening with the hair colour? I'm in angst over my highlights