Random MSN Gibberings XCII - Speaking of a cacophony, suck my cacophocock!

[breakcorefiend]

lol, do you?

i mean don't want history repeating! might be a blessing in disguise!

 

[Myshkin]

Man I need to get some worthy cocaine.

Well, it'd be useless and patronising of me to say "stay away", but that's one drug I think you're definitely better off without.

 

[Cornishman]

You're most likely right but I'd still like to give it a go. Just to be sure an' all that.

 

[breakcorefiend]

Lol, i know tha feeling!

Just cant waste money these days otherwise id be over checking out what matey has each day lol

 

[rockstar 69]

Cornish the last thing you need is cocaine. Have you not just paid the bills from that binge 8-9months ago? Get something that doesn't drive you utterly insane and fuck your health/finances for months. Don't mean to sound like a cunt but honestly mate not a good move for you to go near the stuff.

 

[Cornishman]

I just can't get the obsession out of my head.

Having to hunt down the purest product. Studying its shiny appearance. The taste, smell. bleach tests, freebasing, foil tests, water solubility & if all adds up, an I.V shot.

Granted the aftermath is horrid and sends a shiver up the spine just thinking about it. (But it'll be ok if I only take a small amount).

Who am I kidding. I'll never be able to be sensible with the stuff!

*Tries to think of a better drug to take*

 

[breakcorefiend]

well if its any help what saved me from a cocaine habit (fair nuff i wasn't rocking up or shooting it) was ketamine, it sorta reconfigured my brain, stopped the compulsive need for coke if that makes sense?

 

[rockstar 69]

^ Same funnily enough. It more or less killed my stimulant enthusiasm, because it's much more fun and every bit as egocentric. The only problem is it's a nightmare to get hold of quality stuff at the moment.

 

[Cornishman]

Yeah ket is great fun.

Every time I do it I just wanna head into the great outdoors and go for a wonky walk or try & partake in activities like frisbee or kicking a ball around.

None of which I've ever tried thanks to all my mates either moving away or being too scared of it.

The coke obsession is a strange thing.
Partly because of all the fun home chemistry involved & partly because it's so precious in monetary terms.

A bit like owning beautiful jewelry that's capable of delivering an orgasmic pleasure.

 

[breakcorefiend]

i completely get what ya mean, like the diamonds for the mind idea

 

[Cornishman]

Yes!

Maybe I should just buy fancy jewelry and get really stoned/stare at the pretty diamonds. :D

 

[breakcorefiend]

lol, it might quench yer thirst for expensive items but what bout the thirst for chopping up a line of powder?
im not really helping am i..

to be honest, all of these aside, its the lack or caring bout yerself that allows ya to do this, i am a perfect example of not giving a shit about what i do to myself, and now that i got responsibilities(girlfriend, rent, bills, job etc) i just cant afford to be reckless, truuuuust me id love to be racking up metre sized lines of coke on a mirror like the old days but i can live with the memories and be satisfied

 

[Cornishman]

Haha. No worries.

As an addict there's not alot i can do bar swap the addiction for another one.

Wish the RC scene would make something decent.

 

[breakcorefiend]

thats one way to look at it, i would rather say focus yer attention on, rather then addiction

But yeah, getting back into making tunes recently has put alot of shit into perspective for me and its awesome, i've found something other then drugs i like again and can talk to other humans outside the realms of BL about a subject they might share an interest in

 

[Myshkin]

Wish the RC scene would make something decent.

It did.

Then along came Russell Cope, press hysteria and irresponsible use by people who thought it was a ket substitute.

 

[Cornishman]

thats one way to look at it, i would rather say focus yer attention on, rather then addiction

But yeah, getting back into making tunes recently has put alot of shit into perspective for me and its awesome, i've found something other then drugs i like again and can talk to other humans outside the realms of BL about a subject they might share an interest in

Good point.

Having a job again has improved my mental well-being more than ever.
It's only when I get home and sit down that drugs creep into my mind.

I should get outside in the shed and assess what bits I need to restore my vintage Honda monkey bike.

 

[breakcorefiend]

Get on it man! i've got a bmx downstairs that weeps everytime i walk by...
alot of time invested in it, and injury lol, but tis my machine if i need one

 

[Myshkin]

Having a job again has improved my mental well-being more than ever.
It's only when I get home and sit down that drugs creep into my mind.

I find the same thing really - having a job distracts you from time you would've otherwise epent navel-gazing or taking drugs.

It's not something I'd recommend across the board because everybody's mental health / addiction worries are very different, but as somebody who could have fallen into long-term unemployment due to mental health issues I have to say that a few weeks' work did more to lift my sense of wellbeing than the previous however-many-years of counselling, medication etc.

The bike restoration sounds like an excellent project to fill in some time.

 

[breakcorefiend]

exactly, having a job an responsibility changes everything, and a hobby that doesn't involve eating,snorting,smoking, shooting or plugging or however many other ways there are to pump shit into yerself lol

 

[Marmalade]

my hair colour's being discontinued by the only shop based retailer that sells it in the UK. buying online makes it tons more expensive to get hold of and that's probably gonna stop soon as well.

fuck.