Thinking of opioids really bums me out... I have this feeling like I will be getting generally bad health, lots of aches and shit from former lifestyle - and being particularly sensitive to various sensations I fear that I will end up on opioids to avoid that shit impeding my life. But obviously that is the beginning of the end either way. Not sure if that's hypochondriac, I do easily physically feel like shit if I do anything less than take very good care of myself.
On the other hand, it's cause my life is falling into place that I would have more to lose regarding functionality..
Speaking of hands, my medications are giving me paraesthesia in my left hand

vasoconstriction from the dexamph probably... really sucks cause it messes with playing the piano for example.
@vegetarian diet etc: my best friend has been vegetarian for quite a long time but at some point felt so 'weak' (not even muscle health per se, but lack of vigor etc) and it was hard to substitute with nuts and cheese etc - red meat really did the trick when he felt like he sort of had to. I think he just moderates it a lot now. Aims for vegetarianism, but at times either succumbs or eats meat out of necessity.
I do take whey protein + carb shakes when I hit the gym, but don't want to spend money on 'time release' proteins (casein would be a primary choice). I also distrust dairy a bit and seriously moderate milk etc intake and make my shakes with soy milk instead. I love that almond milk stuff but don't have the money for it. I'd eat some serious superfood granola mix if I had the money for it.
I hate cheese though, fuck that shit right in its emmenthaler orifices. I'm glad I don't eat it seeing those carbon footprint graphs etc.
Really like that joke solistus xD
But just to be clear, I do respect conscious lifestyle choices like veg diet, but indeed there is no need to get snobby or arrogant about it. It's fine to just discuss the matter with people assuming a calm and reasonable mentality. There are a lot of silly diets going around though, like palo / all raw or the fad to eat gluten-free even if you have no allergy to it. Sure, if you just find it works better for you go right ahead but don't make a fashion item out of it like an idiot.
And don't get me started on this hype to not vaccinate your infant, basically any of these pseudo-smart alternative choices based on absolute trash as evidence. It's fine if you're not big on science but be careful not to get swayed by people who know fuck all about it as well but are spreading misinformation like a meme.
Food science can be terribly complicated, it's so hard to get proper evidence from studies... there are few areas of science where there is so much contradiction. So feel free to do what works for you, but be a bit skeptical about these diets.
Holidays now! Had last day of work today... will be making some sweet progress on my automated indoors plant 'greenhouse' unit I've been building at home - will show pics later - and am responsible for the christmas family dinner.. (deer steak and gourmet mushroom sauce, parsnip fries, jerusalem artichoke soup, oven roasted veggies or perhaps a veggie stew instead..)
Feeling more and more confident that they will help me the best they can to validate and fund the study I want to do (mechanical engineering design / drawing), with very good chances of internships and jobs when finished. Will try to help out more in the wood lab where I work now, to prepare for the study load...
My main co-worker in that wood lab is such a sweet guy, a generous successful artist teaching me the ropes of carpentry etc. I love that guy!! He's nearly half the reason I am always glad to go work at the academy (just don't like waking up early and doing complicated traveling)..
We went to an exhibition where there were installations on display (I helped work on the winning artist's installation, she also did a performance which was the main thing)... the installation is mainly a cabin you enter with a stranger, together you decide how far a bench is extended (everything made of wood), and how much time you roughly want to spend on talking... then the point is to create a special and intimate moment basically. I did that with a girl from my party and we exchanged a note / letter. She wants me to reply and send a letter to her home - to get to know me I guess.
Happy holidays you guys
