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☮ Social ☮ PD Social Talk Thread: If 2020 Was the Dumpster, Can 2021 Be the Fire?

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Atomic_Decay said:
Do you prefer S or R isomer? Or Racemic?

I much prefer to depth of a hole on S, but it is quite short duration compared to R so I got into the habit of preparing 4 or 5 IM shots and when I could see straight again just grabbing the next one and banging it in….which is a really good way to become near completely tolerant in a week.

R isomer I found too hard to recover from. 2 hours later I’d still be spastic and unable to move around my house safely.
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never had R isomer. I much prefer S-isomer for holing, but s-isomer for me the amount of dizzinies can be unbearable after getting out of the k hole. Racemic is good for parties and socalizing.

Apparently all the racemic ketamine is been made in pharma super labs in the golden triangle before arriving here
 
We played a pretty good show, but they were an hour behind schedule so we ended up having to play 30 only minutes instead of 90. And then the guy who organized the festival dipped out and didn't pay any of the musicians. A friend heard him saying to someone that he's out $40,000. Somehow, I dunno. So it was kind of a hot mess, but also fun, eh.

Atomic_Decay said:
^^ Yeah. A bad joke in poor taste in restrospect. My bad. 😔😔😔😔😔
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No worries. Stick around here for some years though, and sadly, people will start to drop. :(
 
Atomic_Decay said:
I learned so much from that guy. A real tragedy the way he offed himself so sudden like that. It seemed he had a lot to live for and god knows noone else here gave much of a fuck about the panicking Greenlighter tweakers needing to be talked down.

I hope he is in a better place now.
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I share your heart and mind here. I hope the full best for him too. I only grew respect for perforated as such a real, selfless, conscious, egoless, mature, sincere and very intelligent high man.

I won't forget him. But I have faith in him too. Moving on with life. Adapting. He has it all in him I think.

I feel he probably just needed to focus on himself, no longer the need for distraction and engagement here.

I feel the same temptation myself.

I need to focus heavily on my own life. I don't want to Jabberwocky ideally as I have left my better self in many places here.

It would be for sake of a deep breath, new outlook, old mental and emotional chains and pathways not helping me release now, dropped.

And living can become so habituary too. A certain change is needed sometimes.

I wish there was an option to not fold into the dead sea scrolls of Jabberwocky, but block any further activity in our account.

I think I need to make some grand changes to my life now to save it, keep it, live it on.

Stepping away from BL, I could get my mum to hide all wifi devices (two tablets and ipod) except basic uses daytime i.e. emails, orders etc.


I have become totally disinterested in all things in life so I've no interest in reading, watching, online music etc.

Covid has done this. It screws the head up in ways hardly anybody understands yet proportionally.

But I would like to leave my input standing behind me.

Otherwise, I'll likely not be willed enough to draw myself away.

Great guy though Perforated.
 
Xorkoth said:
We played a pretty good show, but they were an hour behind schedule so we ended up having to play 30 only minutes instead of 90. And then the guy who organized the festival dipped out and didn't pay any of the musicians. A friend heard him saying to someone that he's out $40,000. Somehow, I dunno. So it was kind of a hot mess, but also fun, eh.
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All this stuff can go into the Behind The Music story of the band. :) Or the book. All the escapades that happen to a band can be funny. But walking gear a half mile (if that ever had to happen) is a funny story.

I remember when MTV started doing those in the 80's. Classic stories.
 
yoo

whats goin on? :)

I still regret that i had to go away from BL altogether so abruptly but otoh, it was effective cause for the most part i really behave with my drug intake :P

hey xorkoth nice to see ya (and all of you), cool to see as well you are admin - you weren't that last time i was here? hmm my memory is for the birds
 
I like when some of the older people pop in. I was just reading some Solipsis threads from years ago on Friday,. Sometimes with the nature of the board (a lot of drugs) I worry some may kick off without us knowing. But very glad you popped in Solipsis. Your knowledge on the board will go down in history as it should! I like going back and reading the Big and Dandy's. Lots of info.
 
Solipsis said:
yoo

whats goin on? :)

I still regret that i had to go away from BL altogether so abruptly but otoh, it was effective cause for the most part i really behave with my drug intake :p

hey xorkoth nice to see ya (and all of you), cool to see as well you are admin - you weren't that last time i was here? hmm my memory is for the birds
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Welkom terug :)
 
Magnesium is great. Take some an hour before bed and you can just about feel the muscle relaxing properties. Any kind except magnesium oxide works.

One time I had valerian root and magnesium when I was in opiate withdrawal and that helped me sleep BETTER than the zolpidem I had. The zolpidem helped me sleep for 1 1/2 hours. The valerian/magnesium cocktail had me down for 3 hours. This 10 days after a poppy tea kick. Sleep is usually impossible for about 3 weeks after mother natures opium tonic.
 
Looking back on my bluelight psychosis last year. Dammm i was off in the deep end lol. Im glad i somehow recovered the lockdown destoryed my sanity alongside with all the drugs and amphetamine for my adhd. That shit really did a number on me.

I feel alot mentally stronger and grounded now. Got rid of the fake parasite bunch of women i had met last year aswell.

Fuck at one point i was truly convinced i was acutally jesus lmaoooo. Even flat earth. God damm it is true a acutal crazy person doesn't believe they are crazy like i did lmaooo.

Can't believe 6 months flew by since that psychosis. I managed to land back on earth. Im alot more rational now.

became mentally stronger, I honestly reckon the NAC helped alot.
 
Man, what a day! My good friend and I took DOC and went river hiking at my favorite spot... which is literally my second favorite thing to do, after playing music. I wrote a trip report detailing what "river hiking" is a few years ago. Had an epic journey, pushed it to the limit. It was his birthday, he's got kids and doesn't get to hang out with people much anymore and it meant so much to him. Then we went to his house and hung out and partied with some people. We were gonna play poker but not enough poker players came so we played darts and talked a bunch. I met a couple of new people. Hung around until I blew 0.02 in my breathalyzer and came home. Still totally up from the DOC, gonna drink 2 more beers and then probably take etizolam... DOC keeps me up for a LONG time otherwise, and my pupils are still big. :alien:

JackARoe said:
But walking gear a half mile (if that ever had to happen) is a funny story.
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Funny, in retrospect. In the moment? Not funny whatsoever!

Solipsis said:
yoo

whats goin on? :)

I still regret that i had to go away from BL altogether so abruptly but otoh, it was effective cause for the most part i really behave with my drug intake :p

hey xorkoth nice to see ya (and all of you), cool to see as well you are admin - you weren't that last time i was here? hmm my memory is for the birds
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Hey man! Really nice to see you in here. :) How's it been going?

And nope I've been admin for a couple of years now but not since you left.
 
Check out what Amazon just delivered to me, y'all:

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I realized you can buy it in paperback for like $5, and thought yes, I definitely want to do that. :)
 
found a decent shroom patch on my walk buts right in public they are just pins atm i hope no one ruins it. This old bitch gave me a dirty look while i was on my hands and knees inspecting them lol. Was also toxic lookalikes right next to them.
 
Thinking about getting some supplements to help me with gaining mass. Gonna pick up some kettlebells that I have at my mother's house and join a gym around here eventually, I'm gonna need something to help me get cut eventually also cuz I'm about 290lbs right now.

I'm sure running around the kitchen and working out will help me bring that down tho, I'm gonna have to come off the Zyprexa soon which is gonna be tuff but the time is coming, I'm gonna buy a big bottle of Diphenhydramine to help me deal with the insomnia. I'm gonna ask the psych to reduce the Zyprexa and maybe do some sort of taper. I'm getting some 4-AcO-DMT in the near future tho so it's gonna be time for me to start tripping again which I'm so happy about.

I'm just gonna have him raise up my Lamictal to 200mgs per day when I come off the Zyprexa, that stuff is making me way to heavy tho and I know that if I work out and come off it I can be much healthier. Then with proper supplements and anabolics at some point I can turn into a beast, the most I ever got up before this was 250lbs and I was very muscular now I just have lots of fat on me and it's really effecting me psychologicaly so it's time to make a change. If I work out and take the right stuff I can make some real changes.
 
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