OK now that I've sobered up a lil now I understand ur story better.I just got 4 15mg IR yesterday--the first 11 days -nothing but loperamide---I only have a 2 week rx of the 15's--They have set up many appts.
In your case l think your opiate receptors have desensitized after 12 years taking, plus let me tell you those were heroic.doses. you've maxxed out with oxy, u don't get Any fx from it anymore.
In you're case I think you're just better off quitting altogether and switch to sitting else for pain like weed (at least try it might work fot you,? Who knows
Just hang In there sister, it's the hyperalgesia caused from the wds thst are making u feel like this. In the meantkme, take various hot shower during the dsy for the aches and take higher doses of loperamide like 10-12 pills a day and see how thst goe.
Btw it'd be good if u cud get gabapentim or lyrics from anyone. Good luck, keep us updatrd.