wow i cant wait til i got time to read all these replies.....................i knew i never should have mentioned the meth clinic to anyone in n.a. ppl actually stopped talkin to me who werre my friends because of this lol this one kid i saw today at the clinic gettin dosed had said he was on subs b4 but he prob was on meth and didnt want n.a. ppl to know . i may just go to more a.a. now i just hate hearing about alcohol cuz i never even liked it but its the same program........i dont know . honestly im not ready to be clean . i mean id like to but even after all the trouble its caused me i dont think i can deal with life sober............im just bein honest, and if i say that in a meeting theyre gonna give me a big book beat down .............my one boy who was doin like 2 buns a day and about 20 zanny bars somehow kicked cold turkey in a house iin north phillly now he is all in a.a. talkin about how he fuond god and is on "firm spritual ground" and all and i am happy 4 him that he is clean but it freaks me out to see him talkin abuot the god stuff. i never could get that.............like he is facing serious charges and he isnt even worried about it . i never could do that . but hey more power to him , i just feel so guilty because he is on me REAL hard about getting off the methadone , and i dont feel like is being fair , he is trying to look out for me and i agree bein on the clinic long term aint a great idea, but i may need it a few months at least....................
Man, if anybody tries to get you to go off the clinic before you ready, THEY DONT REALLY CARE ABOUT YOU OR YOUR RECOVERY, and they are more interested in themself and the steps and trying to make you be a na clone.
Methadone is helpin you get your life back together. Its a great drug that helps so many people. For me it was the difference between where i was at a year or so ago, about to get locked up for my 2nd dirty in 3 mos, on double-probation for 2 felonys at once, still using all week and then gettin clean just long enough to see my PO and give a clean test, etc, and now....Clean for over a year, happy as i ever been in my life, about to be a mom, you know? Fuck, it took ME doin alot of work in my head and gettin shit straight ...but methadone set the stage for that and made it possible for me to stop worryin about all the dope shit long enough to address the other problems that was making me use and makin my life fucked up.
There aint NOTHIN WRONG WITH METHADONE.....If its helping you, then its good shit. There aint nothin wrong with being on methadone as long as you need to. if thats 10 fuckin years, so be it. If you are living a healthy, safe happy life , if you are satisfied, if you like where your life is headin ....stay on the methadone. you are having SUCCESS---why stop somethin that is lettin you finally move forward? Why sabotage yourself by stoppin prematurely?
There aint NO reason to get off that shit if you are happy on it right now and feel like you still need to be on it. And there shouldnt be no fuckin rush to get off it. take your time, eventually shit will happen, dont be rushin yourself and beatin yourself up over it. Right now, its the help you need. So keep takin it. Dont even listen to these jokers tryna control your life!!
Next time your boy tells you to get off the done tell him to go fuck himself, seriously. anybody pressuring you like that is more concerned with the way they believe that everybody must be than how YOUR reality is.
Just becuz he was stupid enough to kick a habit like that with no medical assistance and coulda killed himself by CT'ing off a benzo habit that big, dont mean that now everybody else in the world gotta follow the same fuckin path.
Gettin off the shit too soon just makes relapse more likely down the road. you gotta take it slow yo. Seriously, takin the advice that some of these fools are spoutin off at you could really fuck up your process of gettin your shit straight, if you take anything from this post, let it be that you aint gonna let nobody get under your skin and you will keep takin your methadone proudly with nobody influencing you to feel negative about it, as long as you need to til you feel comfortable gettin off it. Im serious yo. You are makin progress, and it sucks for them, becuz they did it the hard way. Id be jealous too if i was one of them mutha fuckas. They kicked cold readin their 12 step book sufferin and hurtin and just usin meetings to distract them. You are freein yourself from your addiction in a comfortable, controlled way, without havin to suffer all that pain and withdrawal, and you are succeeding at it. they be like 'WTF? Not fair! You should have to go thru the same bullshit I did! If you dont, you aint really clean!" Fuck that yo, nevermind their noise just keep doin you and know that you are doin the right thing for yourself right now, thats all that matters.