I've been trying to lower the tweaky addiction to the amphetamine high and just get the positive effects it gave that made me a happy functional person who was able to put together thoughts and be organized and motivated.
Abstained about 8 days or so.
Slept a lot, but I still cannot maintain a sleep schedule that isn't totally fucked. Ate a ton of food too.
Today I dosed with a medicinal dosage time released, not crushed up or taken any way to get a rush..
And I felt fine the whole day. Basically felt the way I used to feel. Social, able to handle every task at hand and like conscious parts of my mind were able to keep up with if not dictate the spiraling whirlwind of thoughts that normally make it too hard to concentrate or focus on one thing at a time and complete the task at hand not find a million reasons why I should do something else or wonder if this is worth the time or decide that if I don't instantly know what to do that I can't be bothered to figure something out.
My question mainly is this - has anyone found its better to dose a single larger dose to maintain therapeutic benefits or does re dosing do the job better?
I'm not completely sure if its redosing that makes it feel as if im trying to maintain something that has peaks and then lows rather than a steady smooth duration...It seems that after the first time I dose during a day, any attempt to take more doesn't help extend anything or keep things balanced.
I'd imagine tolerance builds with frequent re-dosing, but I also think that taking larger doses at once would raise tolerance, any opinions on which seems more managable?
Is there anything I can take that would block dopamine thats OTC rather than seroquel or something? When I want to just stop and conserve my DA I feel like taking benzos only takes the edge off and makes sleep possible, but I'm unsure if it actually makes any difference in terms of stopping the DA firing when its no longer needed.
I take tyrosine, soy protein shakes with most of the essential amino acids, Chelated Magnesium, Piracetam and GPC.
I'm prescribed a certain amount XR and then a second dose IR for later in the day (adderall)
The reason I'm asking the question about dosing is because I've taken a morning dosage and felt fine for a while, but if it starts to feel like its wearing off when I need it, its the re-dosing that makes it feel like im chasing a high vs the initial dosing which actually did work for what I need it to do. So, as this drawn out question comes to a grand finale (I'm sorry I think I may be a bit long winded but its hard for me to know how to ask this so I want to be precise...but I can see others viewing it as a speed fueled ramble..I hope its not X_X), I haven't tried taking a smaller morning dosage and then re dosing throughout the day, even with XR, and I'm not sure if taking more initially and then just not redosing and hoping I don't crash rather than smoothly return to baseline.
I really dislike even talking about any of this because I really would like to be able to fix myself and not bother others, but I figured perhaps you guys may have some similar experiences and advice, so its coming all out at one

I've been taking this for over a year and a half and have been fine for the first year, but after kicking opiates and benzo abuse and not smoking weed or drinking anymore I found that embracing my thoughts was more rewarding but I let it get out of hand for a while using that illusion of productivity to try to convince myself that the escalating usage was for positive reasons when it honestly started to become a replacement to make me feel not so socially isolated with everyone around me rolling or tripping balls or blazing alllll the time, even the most boring things and burnt out people became interesting. I'm working on getting myself away from the druggie crowd more now so that theres more of a chance to find motivation and stimulation outside of myself, I have no urges to take any other drugs, which makes it reeeeeealllllly dull to sit around with a bunch of stoners or drunk people

I realize thats behavioral and something I have to do myself, I allowed myself to be in that situation.
Oh and finally, while I still feel up to it to actually say these things...
Anyone else find that after long term amphetamine usage, and I mean just plain amp, and at doses around 40-80mg a day, that DARI's realllllly don't feel good at all.
These questions are ones that are out of interest, although they probably seem to make the above seem hypocritical. I don't plan on doing Coke anymore anyway.
But does cocaine, even good quality coke, not really seem to have that spark anymore?
I used to feel so amazing a long time ago when I did coke. A while ago, I used it on a few occasions and it was not shitty coke but it just sorta felt good for the first few lines then kinda sucked the further into it I went. And ritalin, which I know has always sucked, 2 years ago I took it and I felt some euphoria and at the very least focused...and now it gives me horrific shakes, headaches and anxiety and NOTHING more.
Im assuming my DA is on down regulation from not using amp and that a DARI can only stop re uptake but if the DA isn't firing at a normal rate then reuptake inhibition can only go so far.
I know that coke is mesolimbic and amp is moreso i thiiiiink the pf cortex and nucleus accumbens (This is really just a shot in the dark, i used to know this much better)
anyway, I hope that this post isn't inappropriate or just irritating to read. If it is I'm sorry
