stardust10
Bluelighter
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How is everyone?
A bit drunk. My wife has walked out tonight after a big argument we had.How is everyone?
It's a long story, but things have to change and I stood my ground. She's an amazing woman and does so much.Fuck. What happened? Walked out as in a break or?
...anyway hope ur ok dude![]()
It's a long story, but things have to change and I stood my ground. She's an amazing woman and does so much.Fuck. What happened? Walked out as in a break or?
...anyway hope ur ok dude![]()
ahhh, hope you're okSometimes you have to do today for tomorrow or whatever the saying is.. I really hope things work out for u. Someone else will probably be able to offer u more support as I've just split with my partner. Take care![]()
keep a beady eye on the ol' ethanol consumption while you're processing if possible please, ta ...you know it makes sense etcYeah just going through the motions thanks a lot![]()
Wish i could share my unlimited stash of Xanax AND Valium btw that guy soundds like A total douchebagg. Udeserve btter girl, when the Time Is righy Someone nice Will come into Ur life. ✌Not doing great. Met another guy he's kinda sociopathic and I cant stand it. His behaviour makes me act up and then he blames me for it etc. Dont fuckingn sit and compliment your female friend for how hot and sexy she is for like 5 mins.
While barely agnoliging my existence the whole time we spent with them
saying goodbye to my cat but not to me..
It may sound like small stuff but.its a lot more and I know where this is going. He's away for a few days now hopefully he just stops responding idc
im fucking broken cant handle this now. Addicted to bensos again, taking low doses though. 15mg and 20$ left just shoot me ughhh
I feel a hell of a lot better after re-starting a small dose of Abilify and Seroquel. About half what I am prescribed. It seems to have killed the skin-crawling withdrawal effects I was feeling.
I also feel a bit frustrated to find that my mind has clearly become so dependent on AP’s. Abilify was overkill for my condition and there were safer options to prevent mania (like maybe Lithium) although it was helpful in stopping ruminating thoughts that made me anxious a lot. Seroquel was just to sleep because the Abilify was so activating.
I’ve done some pretty manic stuff on Abilify and in retrospect may have been suffering from the common hypersexuality side effect which I’d always presumed was meth.
I really believe I can be my best and happiest self without neuroleptic drugs but it’s certain it is going to take me months of slow tapering to get off them.
It’s been decades since my pharmaceutically unbuffered mind has been available to me. I kind of think there might be something interesting and worthwhile in there somewhere.
It seems to be legal and available in Australia. The Australian Institute of Sport recommends it to its athletes and there is even a clinical trial for its efficacy in preventing ongoing psychosis after an initial episode in young people.I have to admit this is the first I've heard of NAC, I am going to look in to it more and see if we can get it in Aus.
That is really cool! I might get some and try it. At the very start of this year I had the beginning stage of cirrhosis due to my alcoholism and drug abuse, so any help the ol' liver can get is very welcomed! (my liver enzymes are now back in the normal ranges though, phewIt seems to be legal and available in Australia. The Australian Institute of Sport recommends it to its athletes and there is even a clinical trial for its efficacy in preventing ongoing psychosis after an initial episode in young people.
Very good to hear Ozzy! I hope you continue to feel betterI feel a lot better today then I did yesterday, weird how your mind reacts.
What's going on man? Talk to usI wish I could be rid of this forever, I don't think I can endure this rapid cycling much more...
I'm so sorry to hear you're struggling right now @Bumblebear . I would recommend that you start taking your meds again and see how you feel once they've kicked in. Have the meds helped you before?Feel like a empty pit of despair
I have like no friends anymore because tons of people were toxic or ended up being disgusting creeps and lost my job I didn't like due to late drs note and now my DOC and method I kinda ruined being extremely suicidal past few months again and I don't know why but I just can't bring myself to start on my meds cause I've been here so many times before and I know suffering is only temporary and apparently being medicated I always come back here
Shrugs hope others feel better