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Mental Health Mental Illness Support Thread V. How do you feel?

I think I might be feeling a little better, just have to get over the fact on dwelling on this coworker of mine who's a narcissist, who basically just started and according to him he knows everything and when you try to explain something to him he knows but then when he goes to do it, he screws up and the paperwork that goes with it, real piece of shit, one good note is that he's been reprimanded so it's not all in my mind, the higher ups are onto him.

I'm not an asshole, I don't want the guy to lose his job, and I'm really trying to help him on top of his attitude, but the first words out of his mouth are I know how to do that, and that's really bothering me mentally, as I have to keep restraining myself.
 
Nocalova said:
I feel great in the AM and deppressed in the PM.
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That’s a common pattern in depression. Something about the sun setting just really sets off depression for me, and a lot of other people I have met in real life.
 
Nocalova said:
I feel great in the AM and deppressed in the PM.
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I'm the opposite, I feel full of anxiety and depressed in the A.M. and a little better in the P.M, depends though, sometimes I feel like shit the entire day, and then when I get home I have to pop pills to feel better.
 
LordOfThisWorld said:
I'm the opposite, I feel full of anxiety and depressed in the A.M. and a little better in the P.M, depends though, sometimes I feel like shit the entire day, and then when I get home I have to pop pills to feel better.
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When I'm not well mentally, I'm the same, I am anxious and depressed in the morning and generally feel a bit better later in the day.
 
I've managed to cut back on smoking significantly after remaining mindful during a smoke (like a Buddhist who claimed to aid with addictions suggested). I noticed as I mindfully breathed in a few drags with my eyes closed a certain energy between my vision and my eyelid. From there I was able to identify a location in my body I could move from that point and followed a consistent path through twists and turns, noting after several retrogrades of its conveyance that whatever this was was consistent. The flow in other words, did not deviate at all in its pathway. With a certain self-assurance that I had identified something like a meridian that may have had something to do with addiction, I borrowed a technique from Donna Eden's Energy Medicine that actually originated from acupuncture meridians from ancient medicine, and used those techniques to reverse the of the energy. Using deductive reasoning I had theorized that the flow was in reverse because of addiction.

After tracing what I preferred to believe was a [new] meridian, I soon found that my habits were changing and my ability to control my habit with smoking was significantly improved. This has lasted for several days now and I used to be a one-pack a day smoker. I can now get through the day with less than ten.

Due to hitting yet another rut in my practices, however, I've been unsuccessful at retracing the meridian in the proper direction to maintain what I've deemed "good habit forming" in conjunction to finding this meridian, and have subsequently noted another blockage with the same meridian or an adjacent one that is preventing me from maintaining it.

I remain somewhat skeptical at this point because of the sudden setback. The first day I traced the meridian several times over and had the best results, going six hours at a time without a single cigarette. The last few days have not gone as well.

As soon as the apparent blockage is removed I might have more success. However, quitting smoking entirely seems to be a bit of a bridge too far.

I started smoking at 16
 
iTry91 said:
Fuck. What happened? Walked out as in a break or?
...anyway hope ur ok dude 💛
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It's a long story, but things have to change and I stood my ground. She's an amazing woman and does so much.
But I want her to get help for the issues that she has, I want is to grow together.
So many couples split up or divorce but I believe in another option, staying together and working through our problems.
 
iTry91 said:
Fuck. What happened? Walked out as in a break or?
...anyway hope ur ok dude 💛
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It's a long story, but things have to change and I stood my ground. She's an amazing woman and does so much.
But I want her to get help for the issues that she has, I want us to grow together.
So many couples split up or divorce but I believe in another option, staying together and working through our problems.
I've had 3 different types of councelling over the past few years and it has totally changed me. All I want is the same for her. I had to go through hell to realise that there was another option. I'm putting her through some shit in the hope that she will start the ball rolling for herself as know the other side is with the effort.
 
Sometimes you have to do today for tomorrow or whatever the saying is.. I really hope things work out for u. Someone else will probably be able to offer u more support as I've just split with my partner. But the reason for that was that he wasn't willing to put in the same effort. Take care ❤️
 
iTry91 said:
Sometimes you have to do today for tomorrow or whatever the saying is.. I really hope things work out for u. Someone else will probably be able to offer u more support as I've just split with my partner. Take care ❤️
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ahhh, hope you're ok

could be for the best, who knows?

big change is hard work eh
 
on.my.way🌿 said:
Not doing great. Met another guy he's kinda sociopathic and I cant stand it. His behaviour makes me act up and then he blames me for it etc. Dont fuckingn sit and compliment your female friend for how hot and sexy she is for like 5 mins.
While barely agnoliging my existence the whole time we spent with them

saying goodbye to my cat but not to me..

It may sound like small stuff but.its a lot more and I know where this is going. He's away for a few days now hopefully he just stops responding idc



im fucking broken cant handle this now. Addicted to bensos again, taking low doses though. 15mg and 20$ left just shoot me ughhh
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Wish i could share my unlimited stash of Xanax AND Valium btw that guy soundds like A total douchebagg. Udeserve btter girl, when the Time Is righy Someone nice Will come into Ur life. ✌💞
 
I feel a hell of a lot better after re-starting a small dose of Abilify and Seroquel. About half what I am prescribed. It seems to have killed the skin-crawling withdrawal effects I was feeling.

I also feel a bit frustrated to find that my mind has clearly become so dependent on AP’s. Abilify was overkill for my condition and there were safer options to prevent mania (like maybe Lithium) although it was helpful in stopping ruminating thoughts that made me anxious a lot. Seroquel was just to sleep because the Abilify was so activating.

I’ve done some pretty manic stuff on Abilify and in retrospect may have been suffering from the common hypersexuality side effect which I’d always presumed was meth.

I really believe I can be my best and happiest self without neuroleptic drugs but it’s certain it is going to take me months of slow tapering to get off them.

It’s been decades since my pharmaceutically unbuffered mind has been available to me. I kind of think there might be something interesting and worthwhile in there somewhere.
 
Perforated said:
I feel a hell of a lot better after re-starting a small dose of Abilify and Seroquel. About half what I am prescribed. It seems to have killed the skin-crawling withdrawal effects I was feeling.

I also feel a bit frustrated to find that my mind has clearly become so dependent on AP’s. Abilify was overkill for my condition and there were safer options to prevent mania (like maybe Lithium) although it was helpful in stopping ruminating thoughts that made me anxious a lot. Seroquel was just to sleep because the Abilify was so activating.

I’ve done some pretty manic stuff on Abilify and in retrospect may have been suffering from the common hypersexuality side effect which I’d always presumed was meth.

I really believe I can be my best and happiest self without neuroleptic drugs but it’s certain it is going to take me months of slow tapering to get off them.

It’s been decades since my pharmaceutically unbuffered mind has been available to me. I kind of think there might be something interesting and worthwhile in there somewhere.
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I've found the high dose NAC-glycine combo (4g+3g b.i.d.) to be very helpful. Might be worth throwing in the mix <3
 
I have to admit this is the first I've heard of NAC, I am going to look in to it more and see if we can get it in Aus.
 
A lot better now that I'm back on my Vrayalar, although I fear that I'm going to have to switch to another anti-psychotic because I'm going off Medicaid. Ugh. I hate all the other antipsychotics. :cry:
 
n3ophy7e said:
I have to admit this is the first I've heard of NAC, I am going to look in to it more and see if we can get it in Aus.
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It seems to be legal and available in Australia. The Australian Institute of Sport recommends it to its athletes and there is even a clinical trial for its efficacy in preventing ongoing psychosis after an initial episode in young people.
 
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