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Mental Health Mental Illness Support Thread V. How do you feel?

Atelier3 said:
I've started going to the gym but mostly I just play with my dog - nice long walks - , read and watch TV. I've been thinking I need a proper hobby or 2.
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Do you like plants and stuff? For me it's such a lovely hobby, it's really fun watching them grow and take care of them, and your place will look awesome after a while i you get sucked into this hobby haha. In spring I had like 7 plants, now im att over 100. Coleus is my absolute favourite, they come in all differrent awesome colours, most of them grow fast and they are really easy to propagate (don't know if that's the right word?) Now I have this project to start cross breeding them also which can make totally different kinds

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Plants are super fun! Would recommend 10/10
 
On topic:
Feeling a little better day by day, but some days are still worse then others. Starting to get a little happy from cleaning the house again lol so I guess my dopamine levels are better. Not feeling suicidal either. Still wishing for another life than this one though. Gonna try to make some plans about what I need/want to change in my life.
 
on.my.way🌿 said:
Do you like plants and stuff? For me it's such a lovely hobby, it's really fun watching them grow and take care of them, and your place will look awesome after a while i you get sucked into this hobby haha. In spring I had like 7 plants, now im att over 100. Coleus is my absolute favourite, they come in all differrent awesome colours, most of them grow fast and they are really easy to propagate (don't know if that's the right word?) Now I have this project to start cross breeding them also which can make totally different kinds

TL;DR
Plants are super fun! Would recommend 10/10
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Yep. I like plants and making gardens but I’m less keen on weeding them.
 
madness00 said:
Your reported posts have been noticed and taken care of.

Thanks for the reports.
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Sorry I replied back to with probably not the nicest of words. Mix quitting cigarettes with tapering methadone and it makes me a little quick to anger
Thank you for removing it, i appreciate it
 
I feel brilliant, calm and centered. I have made it 6 full days without using meth and, more importantly, without having cravings or being triggered. It feels like I never had a problem

I’ve got a hobby started: training my dog for agilitu trials with local dog club. I’ve been to the gym (admittedly only once). I’m thinking very seriously of picking up my guitar and learning some new songs on YouTube.

i’ve been taking a new melatonin-based anti-depressant as well as tyrosine and magnesium and (temporarily) 25 mg seroquel for sleep regulation. I’ve stopped taking anti-psychotics and don’t feel manic at all. Only taking Rx doses of d-amp (about 30 mg a day).

However, i think it is my mindset and my conviction I’m on top of myself this time that is making the difference.

only downside is annoying Tardive Dyskenesia but I’m hoping it resolves now I’m reducing and stopping the anti-psychotics but it might actually be from the meth - which would suck.
 
Yeah man and those nice long walks too?

How far do you walk and how often @Atelier3?

I used to walk all day when i was homeless. Just exploring the city. Id see bums like me chilling around i can't do that i need constant stimulation.
 
madness00 said:
Yeah man and those nice long walks too?

How far do you walk and how often @Atelier3?

I used to walk all day when i was homeless. Just exploring the city. Id see bums like me chilling around i can't do that i need constant stimulation.
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About 5 miles in a day I suppose. There is a beautiful French word for someone who walks around exploring the city: flaneur - it sounds better than bum.
 
I feel shitty, same like yesterday. Sitting on the sofa, eating a piece of watermelon, wrapped in a blanket and couldn't believe how easily someone can put me back into my childhood and also adulthood after i did a Traumatherapy year ago that worked great. And now? I'm a little, heavily scared little girl, anxious like hell. I try to sleep the whole day just not to think of it. Thank God my Psych is there again tomorrow, and on Wednesday I made an appointment with my Psychotherapist because alone i will not get out of this fucking scary bullshit.

JJ
 
JoEhJoEh said:
I feel shitty, same like yesterday. Sitting on the sofa, eating a piece of watermelon, wrapped in a blanket and couldn't believe how easily someone can put me back into my childhood and also adulthood after i did a Traumatherapy year ago that worked great. And now? I'm a little, heavily scared little girl, anxious like hell. I try to sleep the whole day just not to think of it. Thank God my Psych is there again tomorrow, and on Wednesday I made an appointment with my Psychotherapist because alone i will not get out of this fucking scary bullshit.

JJ
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Trauma therapy sounds intense. I hope you took away some good stuff from therapy. It's hard to apply things sometimes without support to back you up. Hopefully BL is helpful and not hindering.

I know in TL (The Lounge) we were giving you.a hard time. Sort of like pledging a frat/sorority.

Anyway, how are you doing today?
 
JoEhJoEh said:
I feel shitty, same like yesterday. Sitting on the sofa, eating a piece of watermelon, wrapped in a blanket and couldn't believe how easily someone can put me back into my childhood and also adulthood after i did a Traumatherapy year ago that worked great. And now? I'm a little, heavily scared little girl, anxious like hell. I try to sleep the whole day just not to think of it. Thank God my Psych is there again tomorrow, and on Wednesday I made an appointment with my Psychotherapist because alone i will not get out of this fucking scary bullshit.

JJ
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You're objectively OK though, presumably, wrapped in that blanket with watermelon. ;) I've never had traumatherapy so don't take this as minimising your symptoms, I mean everything I say in the most compassionate way possible. I hope you're doing alright. You know you're not really that scared little girl either, that's just what the machinations of your mind are telling you. They're not representative of reality though, and you've made it this far through life. You are not your thoughts, thoughts are not facts, and the past isn't real, not really.


on.my.way🌿 said:
Not doing very good. Smoking too much. Can't seem to cut down on it. Drawing a little again though. And going mushroom hunting tomorrow so that's nice.
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What do you draw? I wish I could commit to a creative hobby of some kind... I try to write, but... my ability to follow through on almost anything is pretty low.


schizopath said:
Had a shit night. The person who I thought was my best friend doesnt wanna see me again.
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That sucks. A prickly branch on the reality tree for sure. Hope you navigate those feelings as well as you can, and hope you can remember that those feelings and the experiences that induce them are not a part of you, not really, but obstacles in time. Their loss, but equally, their reasons stem from factors outside of any of our control.


Feeling vaguely chatty and positive since I've done a little amphetamine and some downers, otherwise I'd probably be stressed as fuck.

Everyone remember - all of you have popped into existence at this exact moment in time. Your memories are not yours. Your experiences happened to someone else. Your consciousness emanated from the ether and implanted itself into your body at the moment you began reading this sentence - for reasons unknown, you've been dropped into a life that appears to be yours, but in fact belonged to someone else. You will make choices that feel like your own, but they too are simply momentum from the backstory of the entity that you now inhabit. Nothing you remember happened to you - that was someone else. Hello again - you are not the person you were when you started reading this post. The difference is that you've imparted this knowledge into the memories of the mind you inhabit, so that the next momentary iteration of the discontinuous awareness that flickers through this material body is better equipped to deal with reality. The past is a frozen artifact, and the future is the same. But the illusion is beautiful, especially so if we are lucky enough that the mind we inhabit can accept it's immutable fate, whatever that might be.

This is a strange reality we have landed in indeed, my fellow interdimensional brothers and sisters. These mushy substrates for our awareness are difficult ones to navigate, endlessly prone to doubt and fear, an evolutionary relic to fit the backstory of this slide of time. But we are not the substrates of our awareness, our brains, our minds, our bodies. Did we choose to be here? If we did, it must have been for a good reason. And if we didn't - it must have been for some reason, or by definition, it wouldn't have happened. Anyway, the next slide of time is nearing. Every moment we are born again. I don't know if that's helpful to anyone but I hope that you are all lucky with the futures that you land in as the next frozen slide of time approaches, invisible until it consumes us.
 
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