Juniper Bruhmomentius
Bluelight Crew
When I say Im half beast half machine the half machine part comes from my severe ocd
Hahaha I have bought ridiculous trainer protectors off eBay for this reason. I refuse to shame them with trash bags!Last night i wore trash bags around my feet for my hour commute home from work to keep my air force ones dry. Lol.
What a boss move. Respect.Last night i wore trash bags around my feet for my hour commute home from work to keep my air force ones dry. Lol.
I like wet ones helps clean out the dormant sweatWhat a boss move. Respect.
Currently feel anxious as fuck! I am a ridiculous person and have health anxiety. Yes it’s pathetic but I can’t help it. I know when I’m having a panic attack and I can usually talk myself out of them but sometimes it just keeps them in the back ground if you get me. Like now, not a full on panic attack just that jittery shaky feeling and fuck knows how long that will last until I calm down. No diazepam until Thursday so I’m fucked there, it would usually keep me settled.
How I wish I could just flick a switch and turn it the fuck off.
Weeds makes me even more anxious, always has. I’m one of the unlucky few that can’t get any weed that is enjoyable. The full story is I felt a pain in my leg, stupidly thought it Could be DVT which it obviously isn’t then my subconscious started to panic about it which worked it’s way up to my conscience and then I started panicking. Like how stupid. My brain fucks me over so much. I’m a sane, logical person I think so why can I not get a handle on the most ridiculous of things. My anxiety is still there bubbling away and I know there is no reason to be anxious over something that just isn’t true. I am a dick, essentially.Why don't you try some weed? What's the full story? Every story has two sides.
Ah next Thursday I mean not tomorrow, forgot tomorrow was Thursday don’t even know the days of the week at moment.At least you get drugs on Thursday.
If i ever get anxious i try to lay down. I try to be mindful and be in the moment. It's easier said than done but just get through today and tomorrow you'll have drugs.