mybloodshoteyes
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Jan 7, 2016
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More fetty than dope on the streets nowadays
Yo Raz, just wanted to say - you're not alone here in western mass. Keep your head up and I feel you on the anxiety too. Stay safe man!hey MBSE...tell me about it bro...Usually come to check in for any new posts but yeah it's like everyone maybe sobered up and don't come here for fear of being triggered, are locked up or God forbid; passed on. Haven't read of anyone passing besides Capt. Heroin which is one dude I never thought would slip and fall, unfortunately for good. May he Rest in Peace!!! So how've you been doing? Me I'm still stuck in the dope game having to use at least a bun/day just to be straight. Have subs at my disposal but instead of doing the right thing I end up trading or selling it for dope. Have developed a severe anxiety condition which as on now have to drink my beer and booze (fireball) to make it go away. That's when i can't get some pinners (klonopins) from the street since I'm sure I can't get them from my PCP.
I really want to go to detox and get straight but with the virus still lingering (unsure about the vaccine yet) I can't see myself being locked in a hospital with other addicts who may or may not be infected. Never gotten tested either...I'm a bona-fide fuckin' mess and yet I push on doing the same shit every day feeling terrible that even the dope doesn't get rid of. Have an appointment on the 25th of July to get checked out and get every test available so i can feel better about myself.Mostly the anxiety is just me hoping i don't have any issues that i don't know bout and need to get checked...Anyways I'm rambling but I guess I need to get this out of my system and really have no one to talk to about it. Well hope all is well with you and hope to read back from you... Take care buddy and God Bless....RaZ
what do summers bring??Starting to look like a dead bedroom in here. Its June 1st summer is basically here. Be safe out there, we all know what summers bring.
not in England still as good as ever I even had this tester called chocolate something something it was fire and the smoke tasted so rich, I don't know how else to describe it unfortunately the dealer who gave it to me who is one of my best ones has gone awol no ones heard from him in months last time he was wearing padding so some yardies he was in dept with wouldn't recognize him he was a good guy a good muslim helped me out more times than I deserved but he got high as well on codeine and when he was high he was stupid and had a massive attitude problem and would often lose 100s of bags I mean fucking hundreds fucking idiotSeems like most of the dope these days is all fentanyl. I can't do what I used to do and use 1-2 days a week and then do subs the rest of the week. It takes about three days for the subs to start working, so that's three days of nasty withdrawals. Guess this is a good thing, since I can't cheat. Guess I'll just have to stay sober.
Heat from the cops would be my guess...what do summers bring??![]()
lol your sayin it as if it was obvious what do winters bring then cold hearted heartbreaks? Lol maybe I'm just getting to oldHeat from the cops would be my guess...
LolCoronavirus stamp and pandemic good to
I just find it funny that there's stamps named after COVID and they're fire! It's irony.Why lol