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JaNEWary -- January getting/staying sober thread

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Mr.Scagnattie said:
Congrats. I'm sure that feels really good.

You're clean off everything right now? No booze, no nothing?
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Yes no nothing I feel great!

neversickanymore said:
This is great.. first time in a situation like that is the hardest.. way to go.. next time should be much easier.
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I know it is definitely, I was a bit nervous before going in the party last night because I know for sure there's going to be tons of alcohol around me but told myself hey it will be worth it if you get passed this plus you can go to the gym tomorrow hehe
 
Mr.Scagnattie said:
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Very cool.
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Aw thanks dawg! I was so proud of myself last night and one of my friends got so drunk and went to the washroom to puke many times so I had to watch out for her and be the big girl :) so proud
 
I think i figured out what weekends were for.

Even though i have't started school yet, Been forcing myself to get up hella early all week in preparation and today ended up sleeping in till 10am. Meaning I actually got 8 hours of sleep last night. lol. Serious progress right here... Been waking up early and sleeping in now means 10am, not 2pm. haha.
 
caseface99 said:
I think i figured out what weekends were for.

Even though i have't started school yet, Been forcing myself to get up hella early all week in preparation and today ended up sleeping in till 10am. Meaning I actually got 8 hours of sleep last night. lol. Serious progress right here... Been waking up early and sleeping in now means 10am, not 2pm. haha.
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Hahaha! I hear you, man! I'll tell you what, I've been brutal w/ myself regarding sleep. I could definitely use some, but I think I'm going to need to go to sleep early as opposed to sleep in late. Something about it being morning just keeps me from getting anything out of laying in bed.
 
^^ My biggest thing with laying in bed is that if I don't have a reason to get up other than "its morning and I 'should' ", then I'm not getting up unless i REALLY force myself haha. Which I have been doing the past week because i need to be ready for classes in a few days.

I'm stoked for school right now. And I double checked my schedule, The latest I get out of classes is like 11:20am a couple days a week, and then done for the day. The other two days I'm done for the day even earlier, So I'll totally have the whole day ahead of me still when getting out of class. Really glad I signed up for morning classes now. :)
 
Whew, have been busy lately and haven't gotten a chance to check in. Glad to see everyone doing so well <3.

Day 161 for me. Hot my 5 month mark a few days ago. :)
 
I have used on an off so far this year, but not daily. I have also withdrawn, so my physically addiction is over. Next is to go straight sober for a few weeks, and it will be a successful month, considering my everyday use in 2013.
 
Thanks for the recognition, JAG and Maya. It's always a boost for self esteem. :)

You guys/gal are doing great too! Keep it up. Honestly the number of days isn't very important when it comes down to it, because all you ever have is today. You can have 20 years sober, but a minor lapse in judgement/mental blank spot for less then one second is all it takes to lose everything.

Typing that reminded me of this saying one of my counselors in rehab used to say all the time...

"Yesterdays history, tomorrows a mystery - Today is a gift, that's why it's called the present."

Kinda corny, but so true...

And @ teological^^ - Don't worry too much about it or be hard on yourself. It takes what it takes, and if you aren't using everyday anymore then that's definitely some huge progress!!! Good luck sticking with at least a few weeks! We're here for ya if it gets difficult and you need support.
 
Man that post made me smile=D... but not just in recovery but in life.. all we ever have is today.. just the moment, the present..

Another 24 down Uall<3

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So true. and in the moment, I'm ok. thinking of the past and the future may be depressing - but if I focus on the moment and realize that things could be so much worse, I will stay in a state of gratitude. :)

Another 24 indeed. Good night!
 
Caseface, that put a smile across my face once I read "present" haha, good one.

I have been clean and am quite happy, but I have been scheming on just getting high for a few days this week until the week ends :(...maybe reading up drugs has triggered it? I dunno, but....lol about to go bed, tomorrow is a mystery :)
 
^^ Haha good I'm glad I helped you smile! :)

Such a simple, corny saying but really quite profound at the same time.

Yeah, I found reading up on drugs when I was newly sober lead me to start "scheming" and planning relapses as well. Luckily none of my plans ever came to fruition, however i did spend quite a bit of time doing things like imaging myself going to buy heroin and smoking it instead of shooting it since I had never smoked it before. As if the fact that i had never tried it that way would be a good reason to relapse on it haha. I would try to just stick in the recovery section of Bluelight for a while, and not do research on substances that you (hopefully) won't be using anymore anyway. You're doing great though, keep it up!!!
 
^First day of classes tomorrow? something tells me that there may be a few nice, happy, pretty, single ladies in those classes :) I saw that your x came to the house.. sure as shit she cant stand that your not pining over her.. yeah that will cause some feeling to come rushing forward,.. thats alright plenty of fish in the sea and most likely quite the sea at the new school.

I wish you the very best this semester.. dont make yourself crazy and I would hit the ground running as getting behind in the semester is the worst.. IMHO dont get tempted to add the chemistry. Your going to do great!!

Its a really good idea to take like a ten minute break every hour of studying.. get up, stretch, smoke a cigarette, hop on bluelight.. also the mind works on problems while we sleep so its good idea to review or preview stuff before bed.. not in bed as you have the insomnia.. but before bed.

Are you nervous or excited?

again I hope you have a really successful semester.. your about to be one busy as man case :)
 
Thanks nsa! Nervous and excited haha. A lot of fear around socializing with "normal" people, for basically the first time in 6 years. In my using i was surrounded with active addicts and alcoholics, and in recovery I have only talked with others in recovery. I know there's nothing to rationally be afraid of though, and I'm guessing after the first day I will realize how unfounded the fears were. Just basically fear of the unknown when it comes down to it. Definitely looking forward to hopefully meeting some of the pretty, single ladies you speak of haha. Help me get my mind off the ex. (I'm sure all the studying will help with this, too.)

Also, I may not have been clear in the post I made about this - My ex didn't come by the house, just her best friend but I have chilled with both of them a lot in the past so seeing the best friend is what brought up the memories. I seriously doubt the ex is going to randomly come by the house ever. If she isn't willing to talk to me, then she clearly isn't willing to see me. Regardless, I'm getting past it. Still think about it a lot but the feelings are disappearing more and more every day.


Super stoked to be starting school and have something new to focus on, and finally start working towards some goals. Nervous like I said, but mainly pretty excited. Thanks for the encouragement! I know I'll do great if I put half as much effort into school as I put into being a junkie lol. All I have tomorrow morning is pre calc. Gonna be my toughest class for sure, definitely going to get set up with some tutors through the school right away.
 
I am excited to go back to school as well but mine won't start until April/May but I want to be in a class setting and meet new friends/classmates. It will be so exciting and I feel like I am young again lol. I want to just socialize and learn so much in class. I used to kind of take schooling for granted but now I just want to do it and be good at it again.

Since I haven't been going out that much I was able to save up some money for school and I am happy that I am not wasting weekends being drunk or hungover and then I can spend some time with my family and more on the workouts which I feel that is more important than getting wasted and doing the cycle over and over again.
 
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