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JaNEWary -- January getting/staying sober thread

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I'm sober! Still! Im almost at 5 months. This is incredible. Feeling very surreal right now.

I can do anything now.

Gotta remember that the most amazing feelings and rewards in life are not immediate and that it takes time for them to be realized. My addiction really killed that part of my brain.

Also relieved I'm not lying anymore. To others and to myself

Case. Good luck in school. Work hard and remember that nobody understands math the first time they see it!
 
Awesome generic! So great to see that you are still doing well. It really does start feeling amazing doesn't it..

I have so much gratitude every day - It's actually pretty hard for me to stay depressed about something for more than a week just because I know things could be so, so, SO much worse.

Another 24 down. Start school in less then 12 hours... Wish me luck!
 
Alright off to bed.. shit im all sortsa tired tonight.. hope you all are doing well.

Another 24=D

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I remember going around in the middle of winter in New Jersey, late at night freezing cold, trying to syphon enough gas from cars to get to the hood and cop.

I mainly remember getting mouthfuls of gasoline while dope sick when it was probably about 0 degrees outside. Good times. lol.

/grateful to be sober.


8:00AM pre-calc. Off to class...
 
My professor is awesome. And this girl in my class is starting a study group so I made sure to give her my email, I'm gonna need all the help I can get...
 
caseface99 said:
My professor is awesome. And this girl in my class is starting a study group so I made sure to give her my email, I'm gonna need all the help I can get...
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Case you can definitely get to know her as well aww I am so excited for you!!! Make sure to ask her out! <3
 
Haha we'll see. I don't want to jump the gun having only said like 12 words to her so far lol. And Yeah she's pretty but I don't know her... at all... haha. (yet)
She's probably gonna be at the school studying later this afternoon, I'm probably go and maybe talk to her for a bit. And study haha. Really though, hoping to just make a friend. Open to other possibilities but I don't have an agenda here.


Oh yeah, on a more recovery oriented note - My ex has a year sober today. I'm extremely proud of her and it kinda brought me down not being able to congratulate her and let her know how proud of her I am, since I told her I wouldn't contact her again unless she does so first. Also before we broke up I had ordered a gold plated 1 year chip to give her... And like... A) No way I want to throw it away... B) No way I can ever give it to someone else having bought it specifically for her... So Not sure what to do. I don't want to go against her wishes and contact her to give it to her, so I guess I'll just hold on to it and give it to her at some point in the future - even if it ends up being 6 months before I see her again. I suppose I could send it in the mail anonymously too? All I know is I'm not throwing it in the garbage or giving it to anyone else, and I can't return it. >.<

Anyway, I guess what's really important here is how motivated I am to accomplish the same thing.


Edit- Just had an idea for a new thread. Would be titled something like "Inspiration for those new to Recovery" - And would consist of people posting what drugs they used, how long they used, when/how they got sober and and how they are doing now. I know when I first got sober talking to people who were as bad as me, if not worse, that had some real time sober was a big motivating factor for me. Anybody else think this is a good thread idea? Not sure if anything similar exists but I don't recall seeing it, if it does.
 
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Haha we'll see. I don't want to jump the gun having only said like 12 words to her so far lol. And Yeah she's pretty but I don't know her... at all... haha. (yet)
She's probably gonna be at the school studying later this afternoon, I'm probably go and maybe talk to her for a bit. And study haha. Really though, hoping to just make a friend. Open to other possibilities but I don't have an agenda here.


Oh yeah, on a more recovery oriented note - My ex has a year sober today. I'm extremely proud of her and it kinda brought me down not being able to congratulate her and let her know how proud of her I am, since I told her I wouldn't contact her again unless she does so first. Also before we broke up I had ordered a gold plated 1 year chip to give her... And like... A) No way I want to throw it away... B) No way I can ever give it to someone else having bought it specifically for her... So Not sure what to do. I don't want to go against her wishes and contact her to give it to her, so I guess I'll just hold on to it and give it to her at some point in the future - even if it ends up being 6 months before I see her again. I suppose I could send it in the mail anonymously too? All I know is I'm not throwing it in the garbage or giving it to anyone else, and I can't return it. >.<

Anyway, I guess what's really important here is how motivated I am to accomplish the same thing.


Edit- Just had an idea for a new thread. Would be titled something like "Inspiration for those new to Recovery" - And would consist of people posting what drugs they used, how long they used, when/how they got sober and and how they are doing now. I know when I first got sober talking to people who were as bad as me, if not worse, that had some real time sober was a big motivating factor for me. Anybody else think this is a good thread idea? Not sure if anything similar exists but I don't recall seeing it, if it does.
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Kind of a success stories kind of thread? I can see the merit in that. Might provide hope to the hopeless.

As far as that gold-plated chip goes, hahahaha, I've held on to shit like that; sentimental shit that really always kept one part of my present in the past -- not always a bad thing. But let me tell you what. Many years ago, the day I burnt letters I'd written and letters I'd kept from one particular woman was the first time in a LONG time I finally felt free. Purge, my man.

Life's too full of experience that you need to hold on to reminders of the old days. Because that's what all of this is going to be one day. Fully invest in the now and in the future!
 
I just typed a big response to that JAG, and then realized I had made a HUGE post about her again lmao. Not only is that off topic and irrelevant to this thread, but it serves no purpose for anybody, including me. The "downish" feeling I felt when I made that post is gone, so moving on...

Probably gonna post that thread when I get home later. At the school to study right now. Feeling really good about myself too. I'm actually becoming a productive member of society... What a concept!
 
Thanks JAG, may take you up on that if any other shit comes up around the situation. (or anything else..)

Awesome stardust! Keep it up!!!


252 Days. Another 24 down and I'm exhausted. I think I may actually get to sleep at a reasonable time tonight. doing it again at 6:30 tomorrow morning. Welcome to life hahaha
 
Mr.Scagnattie said:
Glad to hear everyones still doing well and on the wagon. This thread is a great encouragement.
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Yeah uhuh! I've been doing well too with my soberness =D I just don't feel the need to rely on drugs/alcohol anymore like I used to, specifically alcohol. I like the feeling of being healthy not having to worry about the consequences every single minute.
 
^^ Seriously. It's so amazing waking up every morning and not needing to jump out of bed and rush out to hustle or cop dope while dope sick. There's been like two mornings in the last 8 months where I woke up and for a split second I forgot I was sober, and was in a mindset of like "shit ok what can I do to get what i need today" only to realize a second later "oh wait... I don't have to worry about that anymore!"


School is going well! I like my first two professors, about to meet the last one in 20 mins, my English professor. Hopefully he/she is cool as well. I love having morning classes too! I'm done with class for the day before noon on Monday/Wednesday, and done for the day before 10am on tuesday/thursday. So I still have the entire day for studying, homework, working out, meetings, relaxing... It's awesome! Morning classes for the win. So much more free time still then I was expecting, and I am factoring in study time for each class when I say that. Really glad I decided against adding chemistry this semester. This is going to be a really smooth transition back into real life, the way it's set up now. :)
 
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