I feel so... SOBER. Not sick neccessarily, just... Sober as fuck. Its a new feeling for me, sober but not sick. Part of me still wants to run, run into the soothing arms of opiates, to retreat and watch the world from behind that comfy blanket, but... Ive done enough of that now. Its time to be sober for a while. Maybe when im 80 and they give me six months to live ill smack it up... Granny copping in the hood. For right now its time to do some other stuff besides be a junkie.
I myself sometimes entertain thoughts about "maybe once I retire", however that is a long way off. Best for me to focus on today. I actually know a few people "in the rooms" that have recently retired that were telling themselves the same thing when they were new clean. Not a single one returned to using though. Why? Because they know that using wouldn't help them and their lives are going so well now that they do not want to throw it away by using.
Who knows where medicine will be, its quite possible that addiction may essentially be eradicated in 1st world countries in the next 50 years. Sounds crazy, but medicine is advancing so fast and addiction is a major focus right now.
Anyways, I can sometimes feel pretty damn raw when I am clean, but I'd rather feel like this then use that is for sure.