@indigoaura Seriously serious. I would have taken out a loan if needed

I still regret that so much. My dealer still has 2 of those pills, he's saving them for his wedding night he says. Good on him, he's a good guy and I'm happy for him but it makes me sigh nonetheless
What I am saying is that a decrease in the quality of an MDMA experience is correlated with MDMA induced neurotoxicity. In your case it was probably just a case of the pill containing a very high dose of MDMA which would "offset" the "permanent tolerance" from MDMA.
I understand that that's what you're saying. But, that doesn't explain the exact same experience that my dealer, a bunch of other people and me, had, from the exact same pills on the same weekend and seperate from each other. The chance of that happening is so small that it can't be explained by "it's a coincidence". It also can't be explained by dose of the pill since I've had pills that contain +200mg of lab-tested MDMA and they do not produce this effect, same for MDMA crystals, also lab tested and taken in high doses. It isn't the dose, I've tried in every way you can imagine to change up the different variables, the effects are exactly as expected every single time, meh. A lot of fun, don't get me wrong, but meh when compared to how MDMA used to feel, it feels like an entirely different drug altogether, not just a variation of the same effects. It
is a different drug, the effects are
worlds apart, galaxies even, they have almost nothing in common except for the name and some vague resemblance
Furthermore, I have been rolling for 20 years now and so I've become quite good at judging the dose of a pill, if anything the pills I talk about were medium dose, they were certainly not a particularly high dose because at high doses the physical effects increase and if you read my report, there were almost no physical effects except for nystagmus, (extreme) pupil dilation and (extreme) eye widening. And all the above is about my experience alone, this forum is filled with identical experiences, which makes the chance of it being coincidence or down to something simple as dosage even smaller (as I said, impossibly so even). Just look at how long the "what's wrong with the MDMA available today" thread has become. That's the second version of that thread, there is a first version that's much longer even and there are older threads about it that are just as long, going back a decade and more. As indigoaura already said, if it was due to something like neurotoxicity in combination with dose we would experience it with the high-dosed Dutch superpills of these days as well from time to time. We would also be able to recreate the wanted effects by controlling those variables, but we can't, no matter how often we try.
I am not super old and I am not even that experienced with MDMA, although I have some experience with the related Benzofury-compounds. I don't doubt at all that the purity of MDMA has decreased over time, merely that neurotoxicity is definitely a factor in it.
You could check this out on sci-hub if you're interested.
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/15671132/
Well, before the experience I talk about here I was convinced it was me, that it wasn't the drugs. Coincidentally I just looked up a bunch of old posts that I made from back in 2014 and I was even defending that position quite religiously, against a whole bunch of people telling me the same thing I am now telling you. That was all flipped on its head by that one experience. My point is that if you're not particularly experienced with MDMA and haven't been rolling for that long, you don't have the "benchmark" experience to compare the drug quality of these days with. What we describe as being disappointing effects compared to years ago, for you that is the standard MDMA effect. I really hope you run into the quality we talk about one day, it will probably change your life, it did for me. It can be as profound as something like DMT can be, seriously, it is much more of a life-changing tool than it is simply "good fun". Thank you for that link, I will read it later today without a doubt, much appreciated
Damn I have a real problem with over-explaining, always do when it's a topic I care a lot about. Sorry (again) for the long post