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How do you feel right this moment? ~ V.Healthy Living

After a rough few weeks, I feel like I am up and atom. Going to the gym yesterday helped that a lot. Going tonight again after work because that's what the cool kids don a Friday night.
 
Feeling pretty good this morning. In a good mood, knowing I'm going back down to NY to see some friends and then a Rave tomorrow night. Been in a shitty mood past two days, don't know why. It's been one of those weeks where you get irritated and annoyed at anything anybody says to you. You just gotta keep your eye on the prize in order to ignore them and not snap.

Hope everyone is having a good day as well! I don't know where you are, but it's a beautiful day outside...enjoy it! And most of all, feel better! :)
 
sore. A big fucking Sheppard bit my goddamned NUTS. Granted I had enough body armour on that no punctures where made, but still, having something tear your unit off hurts.

(for the sake of the animal lovers, let us not discuss the fate of that dog)
 
Feeling pretty awesome. I have had the last 2 days off work.
Hiked 7.4 miles this morning with a friend then went to lunch and bought trail runners.
Got my hair did by my husband while drinking 9% ABV (DogFish Head Midas Touch).
I am continuing the drinking in a clean house with good food in the fridge.
Hiking tomorrow. Running in the new shoes Sunday.
No work until Tuesday.
All gravy.
 
well aside from my stimulant addiction, i've been feeling pretty burned out. only good thing ryenao is that it seems like after after i've smoked weed, i sorta have this afterglow feeling. its wierd because its an actual feeling, something i havent experienced since February :\

oh well, i've stopped all Illegal stims and i'll be tapering off the legal ones for the next few weeks.
gonna start working out again and trying to get my shit together, idk if i should open a thread or what but do you guys think im gonna recover soon? im afraid i've done some sort of damage to my nervous system from my use. (mostly just huge Adderall binges, meth once) all i want is to be able to feel again :(
 
rangrz said:
sore. A big fucking Sheppard bit my goddamned NUTS. Granted I had enough body armour on that no punctures where made, but still, having something tear your unit off hurts.

(for the sake of the animal lovers, let us not discuss the fate of that dog)
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omg
me haha -- hah
,,. not so bad atm...
better.

//coils&walks away
 
feeling positive
I looked at my last reply to this thread and I am such a creature of habit.
Hiking and drinking beer are still on the agenda minus the husband :)
 
perpetually exhausted.

trying to taper off ssri's again. i need to get off this shit so bad right now. i feel like I can't even keep my eyes open most the time. Have to drink a shit ton of caffeine to be alert enough to get by at work.. then sometimes when I'm coming down off that I get super anxious to the point of panic so I have to dose with benzos. I drink alcohol to help calm the anxiety and depression every few days, then the hangover and depression that results from that last another few days. Then I end up smoking cigarettes. What a vicious, unhealthy cycle. I feel like I cant even trust my own mind anymore to stick to a plan. I just don't care when I'm in the moment, I just say fuck it and continue the cycle. I am going to doc later today to get refill of birth control pills, so I'm gonna plead for help in planning out a taper schedule. The rebound anxiety is horrific but anything has to be better than this nonstop cycle of feeling like a blob.
 
^ I'm sorry you're going through that, ff. I know it's a lot easier said than done, but quitting drinking, even if just until you're stabilized off of the SSRI, would really help. When I used to drink, it seemed to encourage that cyclical/rotational behaviour, and now that I no longer drink, I am able to handle my anxiety without a compulsion to reach for other stuff (and I have really bad anxiety). As well, drinking on a taper is a recipe for disaster. The caffeine is also going to add to the anxiety, and you probably wouldn't need as much of it if you removed the alcohol. Maybe stick with benzos when needed, smokes and any physical activity you can handle?




I seem to have pulled a muscle in my neck, and it's getting really annoying. My right splenius capitis I think. Of course it does not hurt when I try and assess it, but every once in a while I move my head too quick and get that sharp pain. I don't have the money to go see anyone about this, so I'm going to try and set up a poor man's health spa with my computer chair.

Other than that, I am pretty good. Slept like a baby last night.
 
Thanks RL~

I know the alcohol doesnt help matters. I just love good craft beer, goddammit! I realize I need to lay off it til I've tapered completely off. Feeling a bit better today as I exercised last night and got a really good sweat... planning to limit caffeine intake to no more than 2 cups of black tea today. There was a banana cupcake sitting on my desk this morning from one of my coworkers. they got it for me as a late birthday present. I ate it, without shame, even though I didn't need it. It was a present. And my god it was decadent city. Drooooool... I'm not gonna go overboard and say today's ruined and fuck it all, im just gonna eat whatever now. I had my treat. I'm done. On with the rest of the day, living healthy.


First day of taper. Here goes....
 
Tired and a little stressed.
My birthday on monday wiped me, hard work moving 42 big rounds of wood up and down a hill drained my body, and isolation is draining my mind and heart.
I'm smokign a hash spliff and i told myself i'd start not smoking today.
But i'm going to limit myself to two, treat myself easily..
i've only had a bowl of qinoa and an apple today. I don't have much food in the house, thinking about money and isolation..
 
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