modern buddha
Bluelighter
^ What do you think is best for you to do tonight? Do you see your pattern of thoughts and whether you're able to say "no thanks" or "okay, that's enough for me for tonight"?
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EbowTheLetter
Bluelight Crew
Congratulations on changing your life.
Thank you, thank you. Feels goodman.
I fall into this pattern too. Orrrr I end up getting a bit quote manic unquote and TVOTR - Wolf Like Me starts playing in my head and it's a warm night and I want to go out with friends and get crunk'n'laid. Either side of the spectrum can be bad. Ha.
shadowman-x
Greenlighter
I woke up with regret today. regret for going out and hanging out with drinking friends when I didn'tw ant to drink, because it sucked and i stayed up late and pretty much didn't talk to anyone the whole time.
funny how life is so inverse like that.
funny how life is so inverse like that.
modern buddha
Bluelighter
Disconnected from the world. I can't seem to find the "in between" that I need in this life between a "normal" life and the life I'd honestly like to live, but can't because of owed moneys.
blahman8000
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Still determined, but impatient. Also have way too much on my mind. I often have these days where I have too much time to think, and I begin to recall certain people and certain things that have happened. I used to get drunk at these times. Now I sit here and just process it.
Good news is that I'm 3 weeks sober, and getting a little healthier every day.
Good news is that I'm 3 weeks sober, and getting a little healthier every day.
addictivepersona
Bluelight Crew
Totally read "monkeys" first read through. LOL
Guess the best solution then is to bite the bullet, buckle down, get through it, and then move on with how you want to live your life. What's a few years time within the span of the human life? It'll be just a tiny blip on the radar when you look back upon it if you put all your effort into getting through it now instead of prolonging it and making it twice as long by doing it half-assed.
Congrats on being three weeks sober. :) Being sober is no easy or small feat, depending upon how deep you were in. Stay strong.
shadowman-x
Greenlighter
total waste today. lay in bed and cried all day, something i haven't done in a long time.
modern buddha
Bluelighter
^ Has the tear-storm come and pass? It's good to give yourself a nice, long cry every once in a while.
EbowTheLetter
Bluelight Crew
Went to the gym again quickly before work yesterday. Fourth successful day of withdrawal from the office drama.
Day 4 of no booze.
Day 5 of no pot.
Dios mio.
blahman8000
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^ Congrats. Keep it up.
Right now I'm feeling alright. A little bit irritated, but I had a good workout earlier and I'm still doing my best to stay healthy. Just watching my game and maybe a movie later on.
Right now I'm feeling alright. A little bit irritated, but I had a good workout earlier and I'm still doing my best to stay healthy. Just watching my game and maybe a movie later on.
EbowTheLetter
Bluelight Crew
Found a couple of vaporizer packs and decided to indulge while I was body-achey and feverish last night, thusly...
Day 7 of no booze.
Day 1 of no pot.
I am really hoping this fever breaks tonight so I can get back to the gym tomorrow before work.
Perpetual Indulgence
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relieved
modern buddha
Bluelighter
Had a headache for the past four days...
Realized it was dehydration. Drank a gallon of water. I feel much better now.
Realized it was dehydration. Drank a gallon of water. I feel much better now.
addictivepersona
Bluelight Crew
Way too tired for my usual wake up time. I guess this is what they call jet lag.
