Vicious cycle I think Herb. Stress creates insomnia then cos I'm so tired all the time I become more and more sensitive to stress. Big spiral down, SAD kicking in bigtime too of late now it's so dark all the time. Been reading up on Delayed sleep phase disorder lately which fits and would explain a lot all my life I think. Seeing the doc to see if it's recognised as a valid disorder by the NHS and what treatment options there might be. Already know melatonin is not licenced here, looks like I'll be shelling out for a light box. And thanks!
Hopeless.
Alone.
Terrified.
Misunderstood.
Ashamed. Oh so very ashamed.
Regretful.
Confused.
Suicidal.
:/ I want things to improve but I need some understanding from those closest to me. How does one talk about that which is never talked about?
I'm so ashamed. On so many levels. I couldn't even begin...
(I'm not in danger of my suicidal thoughts just venting them)
I need help.