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How Are You in One Word v. Somewhere Over the Rainbow

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^out of weed?

fucked

i have to wake up eeeeeeaaaaaaarrrly and i'm clearly not getting any sleep. pros: i'm going to see someone i have to convince i'm dysfunctional, so who cares? (only me, because i constantly feel like shit) cons: MY HEADPHONES ARE BROKEN AND I DIDN'T even step on them. one side just quit working....=[
 
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Jean-Paul said:
^out of weed?

fucked

i have to wake up eeeeeeaaaaaaarrrly and i'm clearly not getting any sleep. pros: i'm going to see someone i have to convince i'm dysfunctional, so who cares? (only me, because i constantly feel like shit) cons: MY HEADPHONES ARE BROKEN AND I DIDN'T even step on them. one side just quit working....=[
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my headphones broke too :( except one of my earbuds fell into some water so I know why mine dont work XD
tonight I feel hopeful and smitten had a great night in NA and a certain someone is always on my mind. :) sadly our time zone differences make things a bit difficult but she's worth every minute :)
 
light-headed

i have been feeling this all week, like im not really here. I'm always in my own head, i did too much blow one night and i've been feeling light headed since. the person who i was in love with called me and talked about someone they're now seeing. it hurt. im tired of this. i wish i could just erase them from my memory. why are humans so prone to love. its 1 in the morning and i know i wont be getting to sleep in the next few hours. i have to go to work at 8 in the morning. fuck cocaine.
 
abandoned
The ONE time I ask my parents for help, they completely bailed on me.
They have helped all of my other siblings SO MUCH. And I really really fucking need them right now. They just completely palmed me off without batting an eyelid.
No wonder I instinctively feel so worthless and unimportant.
:(
 
No wonder I instinctively feel so worthless and unimportant.
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:(

You could not be further from that if you tried n3o.

<3

Relieved. It seems despite being off work nearly two weeks I still actually have a job. Sit down with the boss tomorrow to find a way forward.
 
accomplished: managed to make it through my first semester of college and all I need is to finish my finals :D
 
n3o, you have a family here that thinks you're the greatest thing since peanut butter and jelly. You're quite the opposite of worthless and we all love you very much. I do know how it feels all too well to be abandoned by family, but please remember that family isn't always blood and we're all here for you through thick and thin, hun. <3 <3 <3

My word right now is relaxing. it's the end of the semester, and I have sooo much to do but one thing I've learned is that taking out a little bit of time for me in the midst of all the finals and presentations does wonders for my mental health and my grades.
 
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remember that family isn't always blood and we're all here for you through thick and thin, hun
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This. I've not been around here much of late, and seeing things like this make me sad that I've drifted away. If there's any way that I can help, please let me know.

ATM: Conflicted. RL just got a LOT more complicated tonight.
 
n30, that sucks. Was it financial help, emotional support or both?

@Dave--at least complicated is not boring. Is that work or relationship complicated?

@xstayfaded--YAY! That is wonderful! Congratulations.<3
 
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n3o, you have a family here that thinks you're the greatest thing since peanut butter and jelly. You're quite the opposite of not worthless and we all love you very much. I do know how it feels all too well to be abandoned by family, but please remember that family isn't always blood and we're all here for you through thick and thin, hun. <3 <3 <3
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Well said sporkgonzola my love <3.

RL has been complicated. More complicated means handcuffs? Is that the case?
 
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n3o, you have a family here that thinks you're the greatest thing since peanut butter and jelly. You're quite the opposite of not worthless and we all love you very much. I do know how it feels all too well to be abandoned by family, but please remember that family isn't always blood and we're all here for you through thick and thin, hun. <3 <3 <3
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Well said sporkgonzola my love <3.

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tired....I hate insomnia. :!
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yayy insomnia buddies!!!! <3
 
Exhausted. Had to pull an all-nighter to make sure I got into work. This insomnia thing is beyond getting old now, it's positively pre-historic. Cannot believe I still have a job.
 
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