Having a relationship with my beautiful girlfriend instead of just having a relationship with drugs. And I probably would never have gotten to meet her or fall in love with her like I have if I had decided to keep ordering drugs like I almost did. But I said NO, I made a change in my life and got clean, and now I have everything I could ever dream of with her. But if I hadn't gotten clean I seriously doubt I would have gotten a chance with her. But fortunately I am clean, almost 10 weeks clean from psychedelics, and almost 2 weeks clean from weed, and I will never go back to using drugs again because now I have a girlfriend that deserves a boyfriend who doesn't harm myself or our relationship with drug use. Now I have something in my life with my girlfriend that gets me way higher naturally than any drug ever got me. And if I ever chose to use drugs again it would only threaten to take her away from me. This I will never stand for. I need her in my life. I couldn't stand to lose her. I need to stay clean. I will stay clean. For the sake of both of us. I will never do her wrong, I will never use again.