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Gibberings CLXI: The Numerals are Probably Wrong, The Words Within Most Certainly Are

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Good luck with it snolly <3 just managed to kick a nasty little every night for sleep etz problem...myself..having terrible dreams but overall feel better for it.
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Thank you everyone <3 n congrats on kicking your habit inflorescence, is nasty even if just a nightly thing for a while. I need to learn to be less daft with drugs, somehow neglected to remember the 'can't really go cold turkey part' :\ going to keep off everything for a while unless any weed wanders my way (spoiler alert: it won't) Also I never seemed to have etiz dreams, either on em or coming off it, though codeine dreams are another story. Is my favourite part of the drug, honestly, the CEVs when you get into bed and start to fall asleep

Found getting out has helped the depression a bit though of course it is now miserable outside =D Is really nice to see the cherry blossoms out though, this place is really pretty in Spring and Autumn. Should be getting bunny back next week or so after the garden has been supplied with a netted 'ceiling' so will be spending a lot of time outside trying to get her to like me again.
 
snolly said:
Finally got the referral to outpatient rehab for benzo problem. Thought it'd take fucking forever and the walk-in don't deal with legal drugs apparently. Dunno exactly how it works, never done this kind of thing before. Assume they'll work on a plan with my GP and have me assigned a counsellor or something? Been just a complete mess for the past week or so over it but feel sort of like can see the light at the end of the tunnel now. (the good kind).

Thanks to the people who've helped out <3

I know this is a bit out of nowhere, just happy I'm getting things sorted and hope it works out.
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Awh this is really pleasing news. Was getting worried about you. Addiction is scary stuff n will be reducing my subs soon so can motivate each other if you want??? Well done - you've made the right step in doing this. it's not easy I know n the wait can be frustrating but you'll get the support now. I've never taken benzos myself but I know that you can't quit cold turkey.
Good luck mate and all the best with getting well.
Evey xxxx
 
Eveleivibe said:
Awh this is really pleasing news. Was getting worried about you. Addiction is scary stuff n will be reducing my subs soon so can motivate each other if you want??? Well done - you've made the right step in doing this. it's not easy I know n the wait can be frustrating but you'll get the support now. I've never taken benzos myself but I know that you can't quit cold turkey.
Good luck mate and all the best with getting well.
Evey xxxx
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Cheers :) Was getting worried myself, is amazing how a tiny bit of encouraging news and talking to the right people helps. Hope your reduction goes well, try not to think about it is key I guess, best wishes to you too, we shall get there eventually!

And yeah getting out is generally Good Advice For Life innit. Is disadvantage to where I live now, used to walk miles a day in my student house cos it was on the outskirts of town but now I'm a two minute walk from basically everything so need to get out there more. Just not in this weather...
 
Yeah, much prefer the wet weather when it's absolutely pissing down and I'm snuggled up in bed with the heating on.
 
Oh I'm not reducing completely. I did 8 mg yesterday n because I've had the flu (literally) I decided sod it I'll have 12 today. I'll have 8 mg tomorrow n like that until 15 April when I see the doctor n get the encouragement to say yes I'm gna reduce to 10 mg. And I'm gna do it. Because I know that the other day---that was addiction whispering in my ear. Telling me stuff like you can't reduce, think this, that, t'other n the woe-begun that addiction loves feeding us to keep us in its' grip (the Amygdala - part of our brain). But I'm telling it get lost life won't be bad if I reduce n if life is, then I'll deal with it. After all it's just three orange pills under my tongue.

Ben, let's say I'm "open minded," I believe in God because that is my faith----I don't need evidence, I just believe because I suppose I have always felt drawn in that way.

The other spiritual stuff fascinates me. With this person's story, as I said to him, I don't think it was a spiritual encounter I think that it was just a result of the drugs. I didn't say this to him at the time but if he believes the way he does, then I don't believe it's insanity--- or that he needs to see a psychiatrist, as others' has suggested - just that he has faith. We have our faith based on things we've read, experiences, things we've been told n that is seemed normal. This person happens to have had faith from a drug-induced experience n if it does not harm anyone but gives him some sort of comfort then I don't see any issue with it. Was very interesting read though, very fascinating. I also liked the responses and how they differed,

I have read some books on spiritually but they were a long time ago now. I have read Sylvia Brown which I didn't really believed but was fascinated by her tailed so kind of kept on reading. Wayne Dyer and the Power of Intention, Ernesto Spinelli n The interpreted World; an introduction to phenomenological psychology (about existential phenomenology etc) n well a lot I can't really remember. There's a part of me who agrees and find the stuff interesting but then I look at some of these people discussing spirituality n they're all dressed up, going on expensive holidays with PhDs and I'm wondering how much of it is manipulation n brainwashing. These people are not stupid---far from it. The have a PhD.

Evey xxxx
 
snolly: My psychiatrist tapered me off 15mg diazepam every day over a period of 6 months. It worked, it just takes time and a bit of responsibiility. Good Luck <3
 
I read quite a range of books...

At the moment I'm reading "Cold" by Ranulph Fiennes... bit of an armchair mountaineer I am.

Before that I read a few different books on Ultra-marathon running. "Born to Run" by Christopher McDougall & "Eat and Run: My Unlikely Story to Ultra-marathon Greatness" by Scott Jurek. Both absolutely fascinating reads... I wasn't aware that people ran distances over the regular 26.2 miles, never mind, 50 miles, 100 miles or even further!

I love reading about testing the limits of human capabilities as you might imagine from these recent selection of books.
 
1 line of aMT snorted, 1 week and a ½ day without any drugs is now over.. Hope ya all havin a good evening.
 
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