WARNING long post and may need to be moved - sorry
all too true mongman,
This is pretty long and I hope I have followed the guidelines? I have a few things to say about codeine, how I started and possible addiction:
Here goes.
My first experiment with Codeine was the best..
...I found some Panadeine forte (from when I had my wisdom teeth extracted). I knew all about CWE, and so decided to dose up about 200mg and see how I go.... I felt great, relaxed, calm and content...itched like a madman, but the itch was enjoyable for me (just like when someone helps you to scratch your back in that one place where you just can't reach). At the time all I could think was "WOW, this is great, what I need right now, I'm relaxed and feel perfect!" the best part was no paranoia.... a major plus (compared to weed..)
After many times doing codeine CWE, I soon discovered that the best and only way to feel the effects. I would only take it on an empty stomach, and have NOTHING to distract me. I would always put my fave music on, usually Kyuss or something, lay back on my bed, and just swim around in the sounds.
However, I noticed side effects, aching back, neck and shoulders, soar muscles, tired feeling depressed and constantly called work because I was sick. At my worst, I was anxious stressed and just to I could try going back to work, I was put on Zoloft, then Aropax - both these never helped, actually I had a bad reaction with my throat on SSRIs, my doc has no idea I was taking so much codeine, so now I have been taking benzos ..... the only thing I was wanting was more codeine. When the doc was not prescribing any opiate, I just resorted to N+ halves. Stopped taking the benzos while doing codeine... Eventually I went from codeine w/end use, to wanting and doing it almost everyday.
Now, recently I have been good and not doing too much codeine. But, I just had a bad fall (while on benzos, fell down stairs - my apartment has no lift, I live top floor and and I have to climb up 5 flights! Try this on crutches - see how you go). Anyway to get to the point, I thought I broke my left ankle but after 2 lots of x-rays, they said I had torn all the ligaments. Doc said it can take 4-6 weeks to heal properly, he gave me a brace, some crutches and sent me home. I was not prescribed ANY painkillers!!!!!!! I asked for something for the pain because I could not cope with it but he just said 'take some Panadol' - yeah right, I did tell him I was prescribed Ducene, so maybe this has something to do with why he wouldn't give me any strong painkillers.. Panadol is useless so I stumbled myself to the nearest chemist, showed them my ankle and they only let me take a 24 pack of N+ (not good enough!).
I called up a friend who said he could help, and came over with his supply of Panadeine forte (he had these also from wisdom teeth), he then drove me to to my usual doctor and I explained everything, he immediately prescribed more Panadeine forte for me YAY! The doc also said that it is fine for me to be taking Ducene and Panadeine Forte together. SO I FAIL TO UNDERSTAND WHY THE DOC AT THE ROYAL M*&B#)*NE HOSPITAL SAID NO TO ANY STRONG PAINKILLERS? I took the panadeine forte as prescribed by the doc, expecting some pain relief, but nothing much if at all?
Only solution I could think of today was do a CWE to get more codeine working for me. As I was in the middle of doing a CWE, there was a knock the door, I freaked out (I have a security intercom and have to buzz people in; NO ONE except my landlord can get in) so my bowl with all the codeine extracted was just ready and out of the fridge, ready to be consumed, needless to say, I knocked it over and I lost a LOT of good codeine...
Anyhow, I just wanted to tell you all to be careful with codeine. Sure it is only 'codeine' and nothing compared to much stronger opiates/opioids.. but I still want it all the time, and and in ,my pain at the moment it has not helped ... I feel as though only way I can be helped now is with Oxy or something else, but I don't know how to get hold of these ... and I never want to be addicted to that stuff anyway...
Sorry for the stupid long post.. Moderators, I don't care if you delete/move/edit whatever you need to do... I sure could not think of the best thread to post on.