Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
yeah ZB unfortunately our @Ganjcat has a lot to learn and none of it is good.
i really wish he'd take on board what we're all saying that you shouldn't be fucking with this shit and do literally everything to stop before you wake up one day and your youth is gone, your life is boring as shit score/graft/score/repeat ad nauseam and any fun aspect is just gone but you can't get out.
and yeah, tbh withdrawal was a walk in the park for me in comparison to when your brain starts processing all the shite that happened while you were using that you never processed. i was in tears for days at a time and every time i'd get a brief respite some more shit would come up, so even if i wasn't in tears i never believed it would end. and mourning mates years after they died cos you were too smacked out your face at the time to care is just weird. i dunno how i got through that clean.
anyway, some good news- at some point in the next week i think i'll be hitting my year anniversary from heroin and crack. i don't remember the dates exactly cos that period was a bit hazy. but i haven't even wanted dark.
i never thought i'd get a year without wanting dark. it was heartbreaking to let go but its good to be free.
i really wish he'd take on board what we're all saying that you shouldn't be fucking with this shit and do literally everything to stop before you wake up one day and your youth is gone, your life is boring as shit score/graft/score/repeat ad nauseam and any fun aspect is just gone but you can't get out.
and yeah, tbh withdrawal was a walk in the park for me in comparison to when your brain starts processing all the shite that happened while you were using that you never processed. i was in tears for days at a time and every time i'd get a brief respite some more shit would come up, so even if i wasn't in tears i never believed it would end. and mourning mates years after they died cos you were too smacked out your face at the time to care is just weird. i dunno how i got through that clean.
anyway, some good news- at some point in the next week i think i'll be hitting my year anniversary from heroin and crack. i don't remember the dates exactly cos that period was a bit hazy. but i haven't even wanted dark.
i never thought i'd get a year without wanting dark. it was heartbreaking to let go but its good to be free.