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Drug Sabbatical Support & Appreciation Thread

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I think you should both make that deal, you both need to, and sometimes having someone else as a "get clean buddy" can help motivate you to sort your shit out so you don't let the other down aswell as letting yourself down.
 
Lol! Like Cherry hasn't enough problems already.

But maybe I'm cynical. Perhaps Smackcraft will set her a good example and they'll walk hand in hand into a glowing, drug free future like the Ever Right kids.
 
^ It was a mate in a mates house who told me about it Unless you are in Bristol, it wasnt you.

This weekend is my last hurrah. Last time a needle goes into my arm, I don't want to suffer the needle chill ever ever again. Green handcuffs from Monday. Subutex didn't work.

I'm serious this time. I aint making any deal with anyone other than MYSELF!
 
Mates just gone out to get something to enable us to score for THE last time this morning. It all ends today and tomorrow is the start of a new me. I'm too unwell to not score today, so it has to be done.

Roll on tomorrow, I'm sick of being in this routine. Its gone from fun to pain and need and that's not what drugs should be about.
 
Good for you CCF is this is really the last time :) Wish you the best of luck and am sending you lots of positive thoughts.

Lets hope that this time it really is the last time and you are happy and healthy again soon <3 :)
 
Yeah Cherry , your posts always seem so full of goodness you deserve a better life than it seems you have now, as an ex employer of mine used to have written on all there marketing material "make it happen"...only dont go the way they did =D

All the best <3
 
No score for Helen, my bank card got blocked, as a mate I trust with anything sometimes goes cash point for me as I was feeling too rough, but he got confused with my pin, so I couldn't get my last tenner, need to go to bank tomorrow to sort it out. Then a different mate turns up who owes me money, sells a box of nos canisters for a tenner, and instead of giving it to to me like he should have, he scores, and does not even sort me any out. Lucky my mate took some runner tax so I was able to have a tiny hit.

I'm ill. Today will be spent with films and a duvet on my sofa. Sick is NOT the word. I want my life back and maybe no more Bristol as I can't afford this flat anymore, and am not willing to go back into hostels.

I also can't feel anything down my right thumb.
 
I didn't score. My mate went out to use cash point,then blocked my pin by accident, meaning I couldn't get any money. I only got sorted out as a mate tuned up by coincidence, and my mate who's been staying with me dipped his bag deeper than had been agreed for runner tax, just so I could be sorted out too. He'd not usually do that but I think it's cheeky to turn up in my flat, pin up in front of someone who's clearly suffering using money that has been paid for with money he owed me, especially when i'm in the state i'm in, and he can eat tonight and I can't. If my cheeky mate hadn't bumped into some mates of his who were randomly walkking down my street, and sold a box of nitrous canisters for a tenner, he'd not have had money, and was hoping I'd be able to loan him some more!!!!!!!!!! When i'm on my script, he's not allowed in my flat to use EVER AGAIN, he can come see me as a mate, but thats IT!

Today is the last day. Rapid access prescribing appointment tomorrow on recommendation of police after I answered bail on Thursday.

Films, got lots to watch, currently half way through 'The Switch'. Then might see what series I can get stuck into. I need thingsto help me not think today.
 
sounds like your just a week behind me cherry ive just done the week of duvet and movies in bed but u said you was getting meth ? that will help you out big time, well it has done with me and theres a new SF meth out ask for that it seems to be way better than the regular stuff

But maybe i did fuck up on Friday but that was my LAST for sure ! but im still getting the fucking sweats but thats all tbh

i made a thread about it last night and all i can say is ive had nothing but positive changes from this new stuff ATM found a link about it here

http://www.mhra.gov.uk/home/groups/par/documents/websiteresources/con120434.pdf

heres my thread and u can read about the benefits ive noticed from it so far if u want ,one of them being that i get high off it from much much less and it tastes even more sugary and tasty than the regular stuff and theres the other effect you know with the bathroom , need i say more ? lol well that stopped since i started this new SF meth ;)

http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/threads/586343-New-METHADONE-in-the-UK
 
ut too. He'd not usually do that but I think it's cheeky to turn up in my flat, pin up in front of someone who's clearly suffering using money that has been paid for with money he owed me, especially when i'm in the state i'm in, and he can eat tonight and I can't
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That takes the piss.

All the best with your Prescribing Appt <3
 
smackcraft said:
sounds like your just a week behind me cherry ive just done the week of duvet and movies in bed but u said you was getting meth ? that will help you out big time, well it has done with me and theres a new SF meth out ask for that it seems to be way better than the regular stuff

But maybe i did fuck up on Friday but that was my LAST for sure ! but im still getting the fucking sweats but thats all tbh

i made a thread about it last night and all i can say is ive had nothing but positive changes from this new stuff ATM found a link about it here

http://www.mhra.gov.uk/home/groups/par/documents/websiteresources/con120434.pdf

heres my thread and u can read about the benefits ive noticed from it so far if u want ,one of them being that i get high off it from much much less and it tastes even more sugary and tasty than the regular stuff and theres the other effect you know with the bathroom , need i say more ? lol well that stopped since i started this new SF meth ;)

http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/threads/586343-New-METHADONE-in-the-UK
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I don't get this. What's the difference between the Teva methadone and other sugar free options? They both have 1mg methadone per ml of solution and should thus be identical. If you weren't on sugar free before, perhaps your finding the new stuff a better hit suggests some kind of sugar intolerance...if there's any other explanation, I'd be interested to hear it.
 
charlie clean said:
I don't get this. What's the difference between the Teva methadone and other sugar free options? They both have 1mg methadone per ml of solution and should thus be identical. If you weren't on sugar free before, perhaps your finding the new stuff a better hit suggests some kind of sugar intolerance...if there's any other explanation, I'd be interested to hear it.
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I don't understand it either they are all 1mg in 1ml , unless the chemist is making his own (uncommon these days) and messing up the concentration.
 
Not to sure about this methadone myself , had my script 15 years and only seen green ,had the suger free for the last 5 years.
Deffo never seen the brown jollop smackys talking of !
 
brimz said:
That takes the piss.

All the best with your Prescribing Appt <3
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It does take the piss, he still owes me money.

Missed my fucking 9am appointment as I had a night of sleep paralysis and hallucinations, then got confused when my alarm was going off as it went into my dreams. Don't even get me started on the restlessness and restless legs, I was up and down up and down.

Have to go through the criminal justice team again to be referred, and this is the first time i've been able to get upright all day. I need to go into town to unblock my bank card, but I can't even walk to the kitchen without wanting to throw my guts up. Also cant feel my thumb near an injection site, really need to get the energy to go to BDP and have a nurse look at my arms.

I cant do this on my own, ack and there are the tears. They just keep on coming. Fucking emotion flood.

Looks like i'm going to have to do this rattle without any script. Oh my god.
 
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Oh dear, Cherry. Unfortunately there's really nothing anybody can say to make it better. You're in the horrible situation of the unscripted addict outsider. You can either score and put off the problem for another 24 hours, or make the supreme effort of will to push on through. Force yourself into activity to make the time pass. It may seem to go awful slowly but, out of a lifetime, the three or four days before you're over it isn't that long. And, while it may seem otherwise to you at the time, withdrawal from your level of dependency won't actually kill you.

Jesus, doesn't bear thinking about. Hope things break for you, one way or another, before you feel any worse.
 
I know, it just does me good in a way to type it all out. I'm just going to push on through it. Five months of on off smoking, with two breaks, then a month of injecting isn't going to hurt that much compared to some. I'm more worried about my hand, I think it's a severed nerve which isn't the end of the world, butfuck does it hurt! If I can get down the street without wanting to throw up then i'm going to the drugs project to see the injection nurse.

Sitting still just makes me want to kick my legs out and scream! The random crying don't help either.
 
I'm on a sabbatical til friday. Still clearing Saturdays K out of my nose today. Must have blasted a good 10-12gs, gram of mephedrone, couple bottles of spirits, 5 cases of beer between us, at very least.

This weekend I intend on making far more of an effort ;)

...back to eating healthy and hitting the gym for now.
 
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