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Drug Sabbatical Support & Appreciation Thread

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I'm going to stay sober bar my prescription untill next monday.

This might not sound much but it will be , a welcome break for my aging body.
I've just recovered (Almost) from te weekend.

If any1 says yeah but you get a large prescription thats my problem:)

No booze nothing .
We will see how this goes ,
 
cherrycolouredfunk said:
Not clean, but out of my habit (smackville) ish.

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Yesterday was the last day I drink alcohol at home, going to be on a sabbatical of some sorts from that, it has been doing me no favours at all apart from making me more skint and recently giving me heartburn, and of course making me more depressed.

Going to try and take it easy on the other drugs too. I don't need them at the moment. Will obviously stay on my prescribed benzos, other than that I am going to try and be drug free for as long as possible. Need to work on me, and not let the drugs work negatively on me.

Of course if someone threw a tab of acid in my lap I would be eating it, but I mean I will be staying away from the stims that have caused me problems recently, and will be keeping off the booze too. Not going to set a date or a time for my abstinence from them as that will only lead to me doing a big binge once that time is up so just going to take it each day as it comes.
 
well my EADD friends im giving it up

Yes recently my life has been just too destructive, looking at suicide sites wishing i was dead !

Well no more my friends its time to get my life in order again i was so fucked recently i mixed up weeks and missed my dr appointment for my script and when u pick on a saturday you aint getting no emergency appointment for a new script leaving me with no meth and once again relying on my dad for cash, i totally broke down today and opened up everything to my dad and even before i had went to the chemist to find out my script ran out i told my dad everything then to go find out i wasnt getting my meth i broke down even more, i used to have a life before all this smack shit and now i almost have nothing so im going to start going to smart recovery again , its like NA but at a rehab day center based up here , im also going to try NA also and try get back to rehab, when i went the 1st time i wasnt ready to give everything up mentaly i still wanted to use and if ur mind is in that state rehab is pointless.

My sister gave birth over a week ago and because of my mess i still aint seen my new niece and today was my drandmas 77th birthday which also i had to miss .

This is it ive got my last bit of gear to do me til monday and then i get my script and tell my doctor everything even if it means going back to daily pick up for my meth

so please wish me luck because now i am mentally ready to get it together :)
 
I wish you all the best , your a decent lad and i'm glad that you have realised that your current situation is far from sustainable.
Sometimes things happen for a reason and in this case i think their are several.

brimz:)<3
 
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If it's your drugtaking that's responsible for your unhappy situation then of course stop it.

But all the 'good lucks' in cyberspace don't alter the fact it's you, and you alone who does it. Friends can offer 'support' and sympathise but it's a very personal matter. The drugs are an easy scapegoat for all that's wrong in your life. Remember that, if you stop taking heroin, no magic wand is waved; all that changes is that you no longer take heroin.

I hope you find you can better deal with your problems without the heroin. If you think you will, just do it.

Good luck.
 
Sounds like your ready to give it all up and it has already cost you way too much to be worthwhile or worth even thinking of. Good luck mate I hope you pull through and everything works out for you :)
 
Thanks so much for the support guys .

This is going to be so damn hard because the gear up here is amazing atm and because i messed up by being so freaking wasted i missed a week some how and got no meth and when ur pick up is on a saturday all the doctors around me are closed so i have had to get gear to cover me until monday and i can get a new script so my dad has once again bailed me out and ive had well over an 8th and this stuff gets me gouching just by chasing it when usually i need to pump about £30-£40 worth in one go in to my arm just to get high so you can imagine the feeling im loving too much but knos its the last time but i have gave my dad my bank card and all my online banking passwords to change so i have no easy access to money and also makes me feel better that my dad will be getting some money back from me for the thousands he has helped me out with on heroin so i wouldnt be strung out and paid thousands in debts too.

Ive got to stick to it tho and i have to say you will prob see less of me in the drug threads but i will still pop in om the more social threads or if i see someone looking for advice on HR i will try help if i can <3
 
Just got back from a week in Spain and managed to stay off the booze even though it was one of those all inclusive arranagments, thats more than 6 weeks but I swear its getting harder.

Been slipping up a bit with the diaz so gotta get that in order befor I have to go thought another drawn out taper.

Good to hear your getting it together SC, was gettign a bit worried about you back there.
 
Hey fellow soberists, my GP has advised me to stay sober while I'm being diagnosed with various kerrazy (I can laugh at myself, I mean no offense to anyone more sensitive to it) plus also I'm waiting for a 2nd Pyschologist appointment. I thought I was bi polar but my GP who really is putting the effort into learning my lifestory and getting an idea of me think my root problem is anxiety which manifests into obsessive behaviour since I had OCD from being a toddler. I probably had anxiety longer than I think as well but I grew up hiding it so well I can have a perfectly normal conversation IN A CROWD with a stranger yet be dying inside.

Though I slipped, I felt it getting too bad to handle and my own house makes me uncomfortable so I came down to my Mums. I should have gone back by now but I ordered some phenazepam (it worked wonders for me last year) but it doesn't work anymore probably because I can only get it from headshops and who the hell knows how much is really in there. I called 999 afraid I would kill myself, well more like I wanted to be 100% prevented from doing it and there's stuff in my Mums house that could really hurt me. I had my own bodyguard in the hospital while they were waiting to transfer me to the other hospital, he was nice, we talked about security things cos I used to work in a nightclub.

The mental assessment ward at the other hospital wasn't any help though, they eventually made me speak to 2 condesending doctors for 10 minutes. Now I don't have a medical degree but I'll bet any money I know more about the use of phenazepam and how to mix it in PG to measure doses. They kept telling me the PG would make me blind. IT'S FUCKING FOOD GRADE. Even if it did 1ml has got to be less than what they put in whatever they put in it that we consume.

I don't care about pissing those doctors off but I do care about disappointing my GP, I had an appointment today but my anxiety went to my legs and I didn't feel safe driving so they said I can have the appointment over the phone. God my doctors at home are awesome. They're snobby bastards down here. I'm hoping she'll let me explain just how bad the anxiety was and that the fact I put myself in hospital to get out of harms way will help. She was considering prescribing me valium you see and it's a miracle drug for me, no abuse potential, no recreation, no drowsyness, it just turns me into a normal person so I can go outside, talk to humans and open the fucking post. Oh and eat, I don't bother eating. in the first few months of 2009 I lost between 4 and 5 stone. I'm not still losing but that pattern continues.

Sorry for the long post I'm gonna read some back posts, maybe all of them, I like to read. I just wanted somewhere where people might be going through the same thing. I'm not a massive recreational drug user but I'm stubborn and don't like not being allowed to do what I want (I don't count the law, well I do but not in this context) Sorry I have typing tourettes today it's the anxiety.
 
weevil said:
Hey fellow soberists, my GP has advised me to stay sober while I'm being diagnosed with various kerrazy (I can laugh at myself, I mean no offense to anyone more sensitive to it) plus also I'm waiting for a 2nd Pyschologist appointment. I thought I was bi polar but my GP who really is putting the effort into learning my lifestory and getting an idea of me think my root problem is anxiety which manifests into obsessive behaviour since I had OCD from being a toddler. I probably had anxiety longer than I think as well but I grew up hiding it so well I can have a perfectly normal conversation IN A CROWD with a stranger yet be dying inside.

Though I slipped, I felt it getting too bad to handle and my own house makes me uncomfortable so I came down to my Mums. I should have gone back by now but I ordered some phenazepam (it worked wonders for me last year) but it doesn't work anymore probably because I can only get it from headshops and who the hell knows how much is really in there. I called 999 afraid I would kill myself, well more like I wanted to be 100% prevented from doing it and there's stuff in my Mums house that could really hurt me. I had my own bodyguard in the hospital while they were waiting to transfer me to the other hospital, he was nice, we talked about security things cos I used to work in a nightclub.

The mental assessment ward at the other hospital wasn't any help though, they eventually made me speak to 2 condesending doctors for 10 minutes. Now I don't have a medical degree but I'll bet any money I know more about the use of phenazepam and how to mix it in PG to measure doses. They kept telling me the PG would make me blind. IT'S FUCKING FOOD GRADE. Even if it did 1ml has got to be less than what they put in whatever they put in it that we consume.

I don't care about pissing those doctors off but I do care about disappointing my GP, I had an appointment today but my anxiety went to my legs and I didn't feel safe driving so they said I can have the appointment over the phone. God my doctors at home are awesome. They're snobby bastards down here. I'm hoping she'll let me explain just how bad the anxiety was and that the fact I put myself in hospital to get out of harms way will help. She was considering prescribing me valium you see and it's a miracle drug for me, no abuse potential, no recreation, no drowsyness, it just turns me into a normal person so I can go outside, talk to humans and open the fucking post. Oh and eat, I don't bother eating. in the first few months of 2009 I lost between 4 and 5 stone. I'm not still losing but that pattern continues.

Sorry for the long post I'm gonna read some back posts, maybe all of them, I like to read. I just wanted somewhere where people might be going through the same thing. I'm not a massive recreational drug user but I'm stubborn and don't like not being allowed to do what I want (I don't count the law, well I do but not in this context) Sorry I have typing tourettes today it's the anxiety.
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Don't let doctors convince you of what you know isn't true but remember they err on the side of caution. Good luck to you, man.


Smackcraft - you've made the promise and, apparently, the commitment. Now do it. It's a lot easier viewed from the easy glow of your 'last ever hit' than when the kick starts to bite.

Do hope it all works out for the both of you.
 
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