Drug Sabbatical Support & Appreciation Thread

[smackcraft]

just signing in to tell you guys im getting things sorted out , found a new chemist just next to me so no worrying about not getting my methadone and i have organised meetings with my key worker again that ive been avoiding and going to start the NA meetings instead of looking at the same 4 walls , also i lost my JSA from being so fucked i missed it for weeks but im getting to start it back up straight away which is a releaf cos i thought it was weeks u had to wait before u can apply again if u fuck up

hope ur all doing well

tell me about it charlie just got to stay focused

 

[Allein]

Best of luck SC, what treatment plam are are going onto (chemical wise)

I should be attending a alcoholics abstainers group but have avoided it so far, can't rally see me wanting to be a in a room with a load of people as miserable as me ! I dont want to be in a room with anyone ...even myself most of the time.

 

[smackcraft]

Just sticking with the methadone mate and trust me get your self out and do some meetings , thats what got me back to where i was a month ago sitting looking at the same 4 walls by my self and slipping in to depression more and more cos i was never out of the house , if you just sit and do nothing by your self mate your going to end up where i was just a few weeks ago throwing everything down your throat and if u use smack you will be taking crazy amounts of that too and cash converters will be your only day out which is not better than being ion a room with people who can give u advice and are going through the same as you and believe it or not in the meetings if you get some good people you can actually get a good laugh sometimes , when im in a good mood i will bring out jokes and get people smiling so if it its a misserable bunch when i start going again i hope to bring that to the group and get people with a smile on their face cos i can be a right funny bugger when im in a good mood lol but man i promise get your self out or you will end up where i was , fuck knows how i can do what i do but i can knock back 400 blues then go hit up £100 worth of gear in a day and still i dont die im one very lucky bastard because thats the kind of shit i was doing just a few weeks back and it all started with a bag of phenazepam ... DO NOT TRY THAT SHIT BEFORE U CANT GET IT ANY MORE YOU ARE NOT MISSING ANYTHING !!!

and i mean it that just put me on a rollercoaster of disaster

but yeah man its a pitty u aint up here in aberdeen or we could of met up and went together , least that way your with someone u know and feel more comfortable but fuck it im going to at least try NA and if i dont like like it at least i know i tried instead of sitting wondering if i would or not benefit from it

 

[Acidtek]

You should definitely give na a go, some of it's really shit, but there is a lot of of people that understanding, you've all got addiction in common and I find trying to talk about addictions to someone who's never had one impossible!

 

[Allein]

thanks SC, will try nand give it a go, its only once a month, I should make the effort at least the once its more a a scoail anxiety thing. Funny though I go to work everyday, but its just no the same thing.

I've alreday done the Phenaz disatater or, like i posted today alledgedly I did. I mean I defintely brough the stuff, then ther about an 8 day gap wheer I remember nothing, definitly not one to be repeated.

Your right as well AT, I'm hoping once I've made a start on the CBT things will start to look up, aftre the way the last few days have gone it may be back to the docs to try yet another AD, I've gotta get out of this hole.

Best wishes to all

 

[rockstar 69]

I may be forced to go on a temporary sebatical if I can't find some money to buy more K for the weekend terrible news really.

 

[Allein]

^^^

Didnt you have 3g earlier today...you little tinker you

 

[charlie clean]

just signing in to tell you guys im getting things sorted out , found a new chemist just next to me so no worrying about not getting my methadone and i have organised meetings with my key worker again that ive been avoiding and going to start the NA meetings instead of looking at the same 4 walls , also i lost my JSA from being so fucked i missed it for weeks but im getting to start it back up straight away which is a releaf cos i thought it was weeks u had to wait before u can apply again if u fuck up

hope ur all doing well

tell me about it charlie just got to stay focused

Does your NA accept you with a methadone habit?

Re your kick, the methadone removes the vast majority of physical symptoms. Just leaves the all-important mind. But don't forget you're only switching one narcotic dependency for another. If you think leaving the smack behind is a long drawn out process wait till you try giving up the 'done!

 

[rockstar 69]

^^^

Didnt you have 3g earlier today...you little tinker you

Yesterday mate. I stayed up late last night blasting the living day lights out of it though lol. Ended up doing 250mg lines! Then I had about a g left today so I blasted a couple 150mg lines and I have one 350-400mg badboy left for this evening after I have a glass of wine or two first to maximise the effect.

I must say though I do feel fairly spiffing for it

 

[Acidtek]

Yeah you can go to na on a script, they accept everyone, people with habits can still go they just ask you not to take you drugs onto the premises

 

[Allein]

Yesterday mate. I stayed up late last night blasting the living day lights out of it though lol. Ended up doing 250mg lines! Then I had about a g left today so I blasted a couple 150mg lines and I have one 350-400mg badboy left for this evening after I have a glass of wine or two first to maximise the effect.

I must say though I do feel fairly spiffing for it

Good work, or should that be wonk....as you were

 

[smackcraft]

Does your NA accept you with a methadone habit?

Re your kick, the methadone removes the vast majority of physical symptoms. Just leaves the all-important mind. But don't forget you're only switching one narcotic dependency for another. If you think leaving the smack behind is a long drawn out process wait till you try giving up the 'done!

i know charlie n i was just saying in another thread after my months train wreck of drug taking my dad asked if i thought i could do cold turkey .. i was like dad just coming off the meth alone would be fucking destroying but ive just done about a month - 2 months of 8ths almost every day 400 blues phenazepam, hitting up so much every day that i had used my veins from my neck to my feet etc etc and you think i could go cold turkey after all that ..id fucking die i think lol

EDIT: and yes they do accept you , they would even if u was using but not if you was coming in a total mess falling around and totally mashed of course

 

[cherrycolouredfunk]

Finally on a rapid access detox programme through the Criminal Justice intervention team (Police sorted it when I answered bail) This time it will work and I won't abandon my script.

I look at my arms and disappoint myself.



The big bruise is from a miss and dirty crack.. it's always snowballs that ruin me like that, plus I bruise SO SO easy as I have thin blood and am not eating enough protein, or even eating much at all.

I'm on a rapid downward one, but i'm aware of it and well aware it's nobodies fault but my own, therefore only me can sort it. I'm on it. Things go upwards form here.

 

[Mugz]

I was happy to see you post in here CCF, but not happy to see that pic

Really hope you can get everything sorted and under control soon, there are a lot of people worrying about you, I know that can sometimes make it worse and seem like there is more pressure but we just all want the same as you, for you to be well and healthy again.

Much love,

Mugz

 

[smackcraft]

Finally on a rapid access detox programme through the Criminal Justice intervention team (Police sorted it when I answered bail) This time it will work and I won't abandon my script.

I look at my arms and disappoint myself.



The big bruise is from a miss and dirty crack.. it's always snowballs that ruin me like that, plus I bruise SO SO easy as I have thin blood and am not eating enough protein, or even eating much at all.

I'm on a rapid downward one, but i'm aware of it and well aware it's nobodies fault but my own, therefore only me can sort it. I'm on it. Things go upwards form here.

you would freak out if i showed you my body from the top of my chest to my feet are all like that , try that cream i told u about "arcina" you get pills too it works really well but you have to keep using it every day for it o work, i ran out and its as if ive got after bruising that ca,e back after healing so i guess u must have to keep using it and not stop until completely gone

 

[Allein]

^^^

Are you sure you dont mean "Arnica" cream ??

And best wishes Cherry, I'm sure your on the mend

 

[Mugz]

Right, after last nights stupidity I am giving up alcohol for as long as possible, it does nothing but make me feel worse when I am feeling bad, and doesn't make me feel much better when I am feeling good. Also costs me a fortune that I could be putting towards my savings.

No more alcohol for Mugz

 

[cherrycolouredfunk]

you would freak out if i showed you my body from the top of my chest to my feet are all like that , try that cream i told u about "arcina" you get pills too it works really well but you have to keep using it every day for it o work, i ran out and its as if ive got after bruising that ca,e back after healing so i guess u must have to keep using it and not stop until completely gone

Yeah, i've heard of Arnica. I was told about it the other day by another user.

I've no veins left in my arm that are suitable for using. So, im back to smoking, then rapid prescribing appointment is on Monday so i'll be on a script. I'll get back to good.

Got a mate with me just now, who's taking me about and about trying to keep my mind from wanting to score, he's done well so far, (but i've still smoked two bags as he was scoring) been into town to see the Graff exhbition (http://www.seenoevilbristol.co.uk/?p=38) that's taken over a run down part of Bristol, and going back down later for the DJ's.

 

[Mugz]

Get better soon CCF. Hopefully the docs appt will help, what you going to be scripted? done or subs?

The mate that is trying to keep you from thinking about scoring sounds like someone good to have around if he has good intentions like that, try and keep good friends around you and stay away from the manipulative ones that are just going to drag you down again when you are finding your feet again.

Look after yourself, really hope you get well and happy soon.

 

[smackcraft]

Yeah, i've heard of Arnica. I was told about it the other day by another user.

I've no veins left in my arm that are suitable for using. So, im back to smoking, then rapid prescribing appointment is on Monday so i'll be on a script. I'll get back to good.

Got a mate with me just now, who's taking me about and about trying to keep my mind from wanting to score, he's done well so far, (but i've still smoked two bags as he was scoring) been into town to see the Graff exhbition (http://www.seenoevilbristol.co.uk/?p=38) that's taken over a run down part of Bristol, and going back down later for the DJ's.

seems like we both in the same kind of situation lately but we can do it cherry

its fucking hard and it sucks but if we both try our hardest we will do it, i was the same i fucked up my script and mised a weeks pick up and lost my chemist so had to find a new one fast so i know how u feel about the emegrency script i was lucky the chemist i lost gave me 4 days worth just fome to find somewhere new or i would of been dying but i got it sorted outand found a new one, trust me cherry once the meth gets in to you and you stop the gear it will help , i know the sweats will still be there and the pain from hitting up but fuck whats a couple of weeks of us feeling a bit shitty to fix the rest of our lives that if we dont fix we might not have one and lose them, BL has seen enough people lose their lives lately we dont need to be the next 2 cherry

Lets make a deal cherry we are going to be teh next 2 clean members of EADD and get our shit together .. are you up for it ??