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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v11

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RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Suicide is when you CHOSE by yourself to kill yourself, when they left you in agony and the only way to stop that agony is death then this is not suicide this is killing someone or pushing someone to kill himself.
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It’s like in a war, if you throw a greneade on me and you left me in agony, i will shoot myself just to end that agony, if you never throw that greneade on me then i never shoot myself to end the agony you did to me by throwing that greneade. It’s the same thing. They are pushing us to kill ourself, and they call that “a cure”.
 
fuqrisperdal said:
Hello, I think I'm in a much worse situation than you, and I'm wondering if your symptoms of Parkinson's, dementia, and Alzheimer's, as well as the pressure in your head and headaches, have ever eased over the past 5 years? It would give me great hope to know that you've at least been improving for 5 years.
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I'm sorry, if you are truly in a worse situation than I am and have all of those symptoms then I think you already know the answer.
But yes I got sharper and clearer since being on the drug. My inner monologue returned somewhat. I have permanent head pressure, tightness, heaviness though I think that has gotten better since I took the injections 5 years ago, or maybe I just got used to the feeling

RisperdalConsta50mg said:
This is not even a suicide because they just killed us and left us in agony, if people who suicided because of these injections were never injected in the first place they never committed suicide and they were living right now.

This is not suicide, this is killing people and just left them in agony and then at some point someone just want the agony to end and the only way is suicide aka finish what they did for the 3/4. We are being killed from that industry, this is not suicide.
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I agree it is not the same as suicide. I was never in my life suicidal before this, I remember not understanding or being able to relate at all to people that had suicidal ideation.
But if you go on a popular suicide forum and search "Invega" or other names for this drug, you will get many search results. Including members of this forum past and present

This is the link to the Telegram group I mentioned, you are all encouraged to join: https://t.me/colai2
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Wait until you reach 16 months without recovery then I want to see how your mindset is.
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My mindset is already messed up after 5 months of little to no recovery, but that does not make me want to say to my fellow victims and sufferers of this drug that there will be no recovery for them either. My anger would be targetted at the psychiatrists and mental health criminals who are doing this to people.
 
I'm starting to get worried I won't recover. 9 injections is a lot. Maybe I got lucky the first couple times I healed.
 
lukeflowz said:
Figuring out to live while in this condition is hard, as everything I used to enjoy no longer brings me satisfaction. I understand how people see only suicide in the option, as I’m just one step from there myself. It’s currently painful to be awake and there is no cure, no escape and no way to know if you’re ever going to get better. It’s only been two and a half months and I can’t see any sign that my suffering will reduce.

Please guys tell me who have exceeded the fourth month mark, is there any sign of improvement. @Invegatorture,
I know the reason you made that name, as one feels a constant pressure hence they can’t relax at all- leaving them with a feeling of being tortured. I was motivated the first month coming off the injections as I thought I’d see some changes soon, but coming into the third month, I still feel the same.
Heck I’d be happy with a partial recovery at this point as I’m that bad.


I’m sorry to be negative, I’m just struggling here.
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Same for me bro. When I got off injections I was motivated and thought "only up from here" but now its really starting to sink in. I remember with invega it took me around 7 months for any real improvements. And I took 9 injections this time, invega was only 2.
 
I’am not even angry, i Just want to inject who did this to me and every doctor i spoke with in these 16 months who denied my experience and called me “mental ill”. But this is not possible.

If I had a gun i already shoot who did this to me but lucky for them in my country weapon are basically banned until you are a soldier and you work for the army.
 
Invegatorture said:
Same for me bro. When I got off injections I was motivated and thought "only up from here" but now its really starting to sink in. I remember with invega it took me around 7 months for any real improvements. And I took 9 injections this time, invega was only 2.
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Yeah I also feel that pseudo-motivation after some months after my last injection, but then it faded away, it was just “the calm before the storm”..

What bother me is that if we were listened by doctors they should find some treatment and drugs to help us recovery but instead we are left in this state, this is so wrong.
 
To feel relax and comfort you should have these 3 things: 1:You have to be biolocigally good (no pain or sufference). 2:You have to be mentally good (no tought and worrying). 3: The place and the ambience should be “safe” quiet and make you feel protected.

Now tell me how you can just sit there and relax wen you have biological sympthoms, you are worried and full of toughts and you don’t feel anymore the surrounding as a safe place because the poison they give to you?

I cannot even just relax while i’am taking warm bath for my back because i cannot stop notice all the biological sympthoms, that lead to mental stress and worry and toughts and because of that I feel vulnerable and i don’t feel anymore the surrounding as safe and protect me? This is impossible.

Without relax your SNC won’t stop to be stressed so don’t recover, it’s just frozen into a “danger” feeling. About the sleep is the same story: Biologically, mentally and sourounding good, but this is not possible due to the poison they gave to us, then you dont sleep enough deep to regenerate, because your SNC feel always that “danger”.
 
invegaloner said:
It’s almost 6 months for me off the injections, it feels like I haven’t really recovered sometimes but how you feel isn’t necessarily the reality. I’m remembering when I first got the injections I was dragging myself out of bed, only out of necessity to go to work and not taking care of myself properly. Now I am able to wake up and start my day earlier, I’m more productive and energized, and even though it’s not at the same levels as it was, I am still struggling with some lingering depression and I have to just take it one day at a time and not fall back into that pit of despair. Weed is also starting to affect me again, not nearly as much as it did pre invega but I feel body tingles and space out a little. I hope by the new year I will feel even better and feel silly for feeling the way I did after my injections
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Congratulations, i hope this is a sign for better things to come for you. What was your dosage and number of injections?
 
Invegatorture said:
4 days till its out. I hope it's fun I need a distraction.
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I was thinking about waiting till Black Friday/Cyber Monday to purchase it but I think I’ll go ahead and just get it on release date. I may change my mind and end up getting it 2 weeks later though
 
Because i keep complaining about the sympthoms these injection left me even after almost 16 months and i keept asking for help to doctors, i got a call from a psychiatrist now, that one who i got in contact during this summer to find out if he can help me restore the receptors imbalance they did to me with these injections.

So basically they called a psychiatrist because i keep complaining about the agony these injections left me into, so we had a call where i was direct but calm where i explained to him that i’am not stupid and I have did the “home work” aka research and now i have a level of knowledge of what these injection do to the brain and why i have all my sympthoms.

I told him “listen, i’am fully aware of what happened to me and why i have these sympthoms, so if you want to push up my serotonine,dopamine, alfa 1, alfa 2, GABA and norandrenaline even with off-label drugs i’am open to that and it’s exactly what i’am asking since 16 months” and he told me just come to the appointment i give you now and we talk about that.

Basically they send a psychiatrist to me because instead of suffering in agony in silence without bothering noone, i just keept asking for help. Crazy.
 
lostsoulowen said:
I think i had my first good day today, i went to shopping, eat nice food, and went to the dentist. Usually i just sit at the bed 24/7, so that was eventful day for me.
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Things slowly came back fr me like that as well. Lifting weights has really helped me as well. started lifting when the symptoms from the invega and abilify went away.

Invegatorture said:
I started smoking cigarettes again, they help calm my mind. A distraction.
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Man out of every drug i have tried i regret cigs the most. They are by far the most addictive drug out there yet you can buy them at any store. As someone who has been through fentanyl withdrawal i would rather fent wd over nicotine wd. I smoke 2 packs a day and et terrible wd symptoms if i stop. I am afraid of getting emphysema or COPD or some shit. Look at what happened with David Lynch earlier the year

I was even thinking about trying ibogaine to quit cigs. But apparently theres a risk that you can de f you take them with opiates so thats me out i guess
 
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