Do I feel better after 3 months being off it? Not substantially, but to some minor extent, yes. That improvement might have to do with the welbutrine I'm taking. I was suicidal before taking it, and while I might have the occasional suicidal ideation, it's not as bad.
My sexual functionality has somewhat increased. When I say sexual functionality I just mean my capability to get an erection and ejaculate. I masturbate somewhat regularly to access how much the invega is affecting me. My erections do require manual stimulation, and they are not as full as they were pre invega. While I was on injections I could hardly get it up and was not producing hardly any semen during ejaculation. I can't say my orgasms have gotten much better since then, maybe to a degree but not much. Porn isn't really stimulating. My libido is almost none existent.
Im slowly forcing myself to do things I once enjoyed even if I don't find it enjoyable. I did manage to cry from a song today, just a little bit, but I was nice to have a human experience. The song is called one fine day by David byrne..it hit me because I yearn for that one fine day, where this experience is past me. I plan on going to the gym soon and fishing once i can afford to. May also work on some coding projects and music and animation projects.