Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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Hi guys, I'm doing fine, thanks for worrying about me.
I'm getting better actually.
This Friday Imma try weed again to see if I can get high.

I was offline because I blocked my phone from porn temporarily so I deleted all my browsers.

Hope everyone is ok.

Thanks for worrying about me @Youwillrecover ❤️
how long has it been since the last shot?
 
Everytime I smoke weed now I get negative thoughts? I get demonic thoughts. Devilish thoughts. Before taking any kind of medication I used to smoke a lot of weed and be perfectly fine. Now if I smoke weed I see demons. Has this happened to anyone else?
Yes that happened to me . Before 2023 I would get happy and euphoric from weed but after my psychosis in mid 2023, everytime I smoked weed id get very negative thoughts and my psychosis would creep up again so I'm guessing after our psychosis, our brains associate weed and its effects with psychosis so it naturally generates negative and demonic thoughts to prevent you from smoking it so you dont further damage your brain with psychosis?
 
Do I feel better after 3 months being off it? Not substantially, but to some minor extent, yes. That improvement might have to do with the welbutrine I'm taking. I was suicidal before taking it, and while I might have the occasional suicidal ideation, it's not as bad.

My sexual functionality has somewhat increased. When I say sexual functionality I just mean my capability to get an erection and ejaculate. I masturbate somewhat regularly to access how much the invega is affecting me. My erections do require manual stimulation, and they are not as full as they were pre invega. While I was on injections I could hardly get it up and was not producing hardly any semen during ejaculation. I can't say my orgasms have gotten much better since then, maybe to a degree but not much. Porn isn't really stimulating. My libido is almost none existent.

Im slowly forcing myself to do things I once enjoyed even if I don't find it enjoyable. I did manage to cry from a song today, just a little bit, but I was nice to have a human experience. The song is called one fine day by David byrne..it hit me because I yearn for that one fine day, where this experience is past me. I plan on going to the gym soon and fishing once i can afford to. May also work on some coding projects and music and animation projects.
Welcome, yes I also used to be on wellbutrin and i did get results from it but that quickly went away a month later now it seems placebo for me. In your case if it helps continue to take it. I'm surprised you can even enjoy or cry to music that means you dont have full emotional blunting like I do. Thats a really good sign. We are in this together man, we will heal 100%
 
Welcome, yes I also used to be on wellbutrin and i did get results from it but that quickly went away a month later now it seems placebo for me. In your case if it helps continue to take it. I'm surprised you can even enjoy or cry to music that means you dont have full emotional blunting like I do. Thats a really good sign. We are in this together man, we will heal 100%
Thanks for the welcome.

I wouldn't say I enjoy music much, but like I mentioned, I'm trying to force my self to engage in things I use to enjoy as part of my recovery plan.

But you are right it's a good sign I can cry, although it was pretty short lived and mild. I know the old me would have been bawling his eyes out over this whole situation we are all going through.

Overall I'd say my emotions are like 5 percent of what they use to be in terms of intensity.

What do you plan on doing today Tony? I'm thinking of starting a ketogenic diet, to hopefully deal with all this fat I've put on. And maybe forcing myself to work on some projects or atleast write down ideas.
 
Do you have demonic thoughts as well?

Everytime I smoke weed now I get negative thoughts? I get demonic thoughts. Devilish thoughts. Before taking any kind of medication I used to smoke a lot of weed and be perfectly fine. Now if I smoke weed I see demons. Has this happened to anyone else?
I haved bad effects with marijuana sometimes.becarfull with This. Be patient and smoke when u will be fine inchallah. With the poison of injection its a bad cocktail bro
 
Thanks for the welcome.

I wouldn't say I enjoy music much, but like I mentioned, I'm trying to force my self to engage in things I use to enjoy as part of my recovery plan.

But you are right it's a good sign I can cry, although it was pretty short lived and mild. I know the old me would have been bawling his eyes out over this whole situation we are all going through.

Overall I'd say my emotions are like 5 percent of what they use to be in terms of intensity.

What do you plan on doing today Tony? I'm thinking of starting a ketogenic diet, to hopefully deal with all this fat I've put on. And maybe forcing myself to work on some projects or atleast write down ideas.
5% is better than nothing , i have 0% emotions i havent cried or felt any sort of real emotion in the past 13 months since i began getting injected. I plan on continuing my diet, i started a diet called omad where u eat one meal a day hence the acronym and I lost close to 15 pounds in one month , its hard but going to eat steak and eggs in a little bit once it finishes thawing. I recommend doing a diet to deal with all the weight you have gained on invega because working out isnt going to put a huge dent in it so def start that diet and you will see huge results.
 
You said you’re feeling better which is great! Do you feel like less zombified? Better emotions? I’m only a month out in recovery, struggling everyday.
I get shivers in my spine from music sometimes and I don't feel zombie at all.
Communication skills are great and I speak without any problems.
It will never be what it was before all of those injections (Not naturally at least).
I will test weed this Friday!
 
Hey everyone just a reminder that Jesus heals and I am fully cured after 4 injections and 10 months of pure torture. Constant prayer and Bible studies guys, get into it. My symptoms ended in March I think it was. Praise God. Love to you all
 
Hey. Im 1.5 week into my two xeplion shots. Im ghosting the healthcare people and not getting another shot. Are the withdrawals really that bad? I guess im in for a ride lol.
 
Hey. Im 1.5 week into my two xeplion shots. Im ghosting the healthcare people and not getting another shot. Are the withdrawals really that bad? I guess im in for a ride lol.
those IM shots naturally taper themselves so you shouldn't get a lot of withdrawals symptoms . Had you taken the pills and stop them abruptly then yes you would get bad withdrawals but for me I had Invega and stopped it 6 months ago and 0 withdrawals just side effects from the shot,
 
There is no way you are healed. I don't like people like you who lies to themselves and everyone else.

those IM shots naturally taper themselves so you shouldn't get a lot of withdrawals symptoms . Had you taken the pills and stop them abruptly then yes you would get bad withdrawals but for me I had Invega and stopped it 6 months ago and 0 withdrawals just side effects from the shot,
I took risperidone pills for 3-4 weeks then these two shots of xeplion. Fuck these meds dude
 
Hey everyone just a reminder that Jesus heals and I am fully cured after 4 injections and 10 months of pure torture. Constant prayer and Bible studies guys, get into it. My symptoms ended in March I think it was. Praise God. Love to you all
Why you look so diff tho? Its the invega?
 
So Jesus just watched you Suffer for 10 months without doing anything? He just sat there and laughed for 10 months.
it was a test Allah gives great tests to those who love him, did not believe that those who do not have a test Allah loves them Allah gives the hardest test to those who love him
 
Hey everyone just a reminder that Jesus heals and I am fully cured after 4 injections and 10 months of pure torture. Constant prayer and Bible studies guys, get into it. My symptoms ended in March I think it was. Praise God. Love to you all
your smile in your photo is magnificent, you look pure, it can be seen on your face, you have healed, you can be proud of yourself, now enjoy life as it should be, I wish you an excellent life and to be happy, you deserve it , after the rain there is good weather, after difficulty comes ease thank you for coming to give us a lot of hope, can I ask you what was your dose of your 4 injections? How long did it take you to regain all your emotions and your libido thank you
 
I haven't found anyone yet who %100 fully healed. Everyone I talked to still deals with some sort of sideffects/withdrawal. Also if they cannot get drunk or get high off weed like before then they didn't heal. They still have the medicine inside them. Where's everyone who %100 healed on bluelight.org? Maybe because there isn't anyone.
there are 9 threads with full stories of 100% healing we are on v9 lol they are not there quite simply because they want to forget their nightmares, once the dopamine receptor is completely healed you could get high but I advise you to take it slowly you will be sensitive lol
 
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