@HateInvega: good breakthrough. "couldn't do anything"?? sounds like it's time to get a new doc man. (not telling you what to do)
@Hellohihey2: those eyes being constricted are typical for a lot of people. even while using uppers i couldn't get my eyes to dilate which was weirding people out who used with me. others in the past have gone through the same and said it all goes back to normal, most days my eyes are not as constricted. i use to wear sunglasses cause not only did the sun burn my skin but my eyes couldn't see with the blinding light. it's possible the anger is from having emotions again, also might be because you are having separation or comedown from invega. the anxiety is also caused by this. you are starting to re-balance or going back to a state of homeostasis. either way that is a very good sign in healing.
^ both of you have good info, advice and making good progress. keep us updated.
@LifeAfterInvega: thanks. Narshe81 posted a lot of places on the net and came back here for a lil while as Narshe81_return because he forgot his password. he said as much as you did on a few forums and i feel for the guy big time. still thankful he gave so many people a place to start healing from. (much love Narshe)
@Empty1128: that absurd feeling in the brain is why i quit taking the poison too. that and my memory was so horrible from top to bottom. try an aspirin for today to see if it helps with the tachycardia, nervous feeling being gone is awesome. keep up with the walks, being connected to life and other people by getting out is sometimes over rated and sometimes undervalued but a big help either way if and when you can get outside.
@WildSunShin3: let's keep doing the PM thing. we can work this through until it passes or figure out what else to do about it. those here definitely can relate and don't want any harm to come to you. i'm a lil wore out right now from typing this post (why? because i'm finally separating more from the poison, going through my own withdrawals from it. got anxiety, displacement and other signs that let me know they are real and not being affected by the poison anymore, trying to anyway.) but i'll shoot you one in a lil.
@nybryx: vent away brother. it's what this thread is here for. we feel you and don't judge you for it.
@Steph78: "die invega". wow, spoke to my soul with that one. very chill.
to the room: the poison creates that suicidal feeling in us, everyone goes through it at some time, we don't actually want to die. when it does this to us it warps our thoughts and behavior into believing that is what we really want... it is not. it is frustrating, unfair and definitely not who we are. everyone else who came before you has gotten past this part, find what helps to get you through it and you will see it for yourselves. this too shall pass.
it also creates another problem in terms with mortality, a figurative one. a lil death or what i call change. it locks us into a bad mode and nothing seems to get better or change and our brain, body, emotions and spirit/soul are struggling to do so, screaming at us it wants something different. it is one of the hardest things to deal with while on the poison but like hope and the rest of ourselves the poison only temporarily removes us from; in time things will change again and things will get back to the way they were once before if not better. in the mean time keep coming here, distracting yourself and working to overcome this obstacle that has been put in front of you. healing comes first always.
