CoastTwoCoast
Bluelighter
I'm glad you shared your story. I just feel so fucked right now , I can't think straight. I'm sick of feeling all the guilt of being hooked...so much guilt....my life is reduced to counting down the days and waiting for a fucking package. Constantly looking out the window for the fucking mail. What have I become? Yet, it feels so good and makes me forget myself, I keep doing it. Adding alcohol is what I will no longer do again. It's crazy like once I get the Etiz or c-lam into my system, it makes me head straight to the liquor store. That's when things get really fucked up at home, falling, blacking out, etc. I have to stop drinking with it. Period.
^ And in regards to people not selling benzos like they used to, it would be different if you could only get it on the street or from friends. The problem is you can easily keep ordering this shit and have it within a few days. That makes it harder to stop. It's taking my life away from me though.' It's giving but ultimately taking. Fuck.
I've been up all night crying. I see my psychiatrist today and I'm going to confess I went through my Klonopin too fast this month. Hopefully she'll have mercy and give me more. Even though I get paid Friday, I would still have to wait until early next week for Etiz or c-lam to arrive at my door. I can't wait for that. This is the darkest depression I've ever felt in my life. I'm not going to mention RC benzos to her. I'm just going to ask for extra Klonopin to get me through.
^ And in regards to people not selling benzos like they used to, it would be different if you could only get it on the street or from friends. The problem is you can easily keep ordering this shit and have it within a few days. That makes it harder to stop. It's taking my life away from me though.' It's giving but ultimately taking. Fuck.
I've been up all night crying. I see my psychiatrist today and I'm going to confess I went through my Klonopin too fast this month. Hopefully she'll have mercy and give me more. Even though I get paid Friday, I would still have to wait until early next week for Etiz or c-lam to arrive at my door. I can't wait for that. This is the darkest depression I've ever felt in my life. I'm not going to mention RC benzos to her. I'm just going to ask for extra Klonopin to get me through.
Last edited: