Hello everyone from a brighter place!
This morning. Oh god no, last night, I went to sleep happy. I thought "You know what CottonAndGuns, though you didn't even do alcohol in your teens and 20's you really do like the high you sometimes get from opiates especially if you can't sleep at 5am and you can just go downstairs, rest the ipad on your svelte belly with the fire roaring away watching nothing but rubbish. Sometimes with Minecraft on the Switch building all the things you can imagine - scratching that Lego childhood itch". I like the high I get. I realised... holy shit people gave me spirits for my birthdays and I don't even drink. I'll wake up at 5am and get a good dose of GABA from spirits. So I did. And it was shit. I just felt bad and lumbered the whole time.
The docs office had been open for nearly 2 hours when I phoned asking for an emergency appointment. I got one in an hours time. I went and confessed all about phenibut to a VERY understanding doctor. It couldn't have gone better. He's well ready to prescribe me gabapentin, lyrica, baclofen (sp?) if need be. So I went for gabapentin. Minutes later I downed about 500mg worth. 3 hours later I felt fucking normal again.
So normal that I hadn't had dihydrocodeine for 15 hours and I did not feel withdrawals at all. I had a drugs meeting where I was supposed to be in serious withdrawals. Nope. I felt so chipper and normal. Fucking loved it. That's gabapentin for ya. Makes life normal when you're not.
I've been prescribed bupe as a replacement/taper med. So far so good. I had one about 20 mins ago and I'm starting to come up. I was reading about blind studies where people given bupe injections mistook it for heroin as the euphoria was that good.
Last night I had printed out all my phenibut stuff, stuffed them in a messenger bag and drove around sourcing DHC to cold water. My plan was to go to A&E after getting the DHC but I held off. The morning after as I had booked that doc appointment I took those print outs with me. Gosh what a good doc though. The gabapentin has almost completely removed all the phenibut WDS except the muscle twitching.