(and yeah, it'll be difficult not to buy additional supplies...except I HATE spending days looking for the things, waiting for emails to be answered, nervously waiting for packages to arrive, and then nervously waiting to see if they're for real or fakes). TBH, like most addicts, part of why I want to quit is the time, tension and risk involved in maintaining benzo dependency through a dodgy black market where even good suppliers can go from dark blue knockout HKs to shit www 'd10s' that are more like 2-5mgs, or something else entirely: it's just not worth it, for a drug that, once you're hooked, produces no real effect but the negative of preventing withdrawal. So I want off, and quickly...I just hope I get a sympathetic hearing.
Glad to hear your meeting with your Doc went well, but I must admit Im puzzled at to why you were attempting to obtain a variety of dodgy black market benzos, when perfectly reliable and consistent etilaams have been legally avaiable throughout. Were you just bored of Etilzolam/looking for a different buzz ?
Flushed my etizolam stash tonight, for the second or third time. Got in a bit of a mess with it recently and let family down; now everyone knows I'm a fuckup! I am not fit to have th/benzo powder in the house. The risk of overdoing it is too great. Judgement is destroyed after a few mgs and I end up taking many mgs. Part of it is, I'm sure, a desire for oblivion, but unless it's permanent, what's the point? So no more.
If they make me sleep then it's all good. The last thing I go looking for in benzos is euphoria. Ecto does that. I have never found any diaz, whether it be random sketchy pills or genuine real ones from boots or diaz powder, to be euphoric.
there is a very good batch of the MA (ww) d 10s about, typical crazy diazepam behaviour and mem loss of 3 days @ cornish