living with people is haaaarrrddd.
i've got loads of niggles with my housemate, none of which in itself is a big issue but put together they are getting to me. i've had to take zopiclone twice this week cos i've been obsessing about it and its stopped me sleeping. after needing 1 all year so far. i feel like she doesn't consider me, she wouldn't have the house without me cos she's on housing benefit and has a ccj, and she's massively taken over the house, including hanging stuff up that blocked access to my room til i moved it. on friday she said i could just freeze over winter cos her room has double glazing and mine doesn't, she said it jokily but i'm not impressed. i let her choose which room she wanted.
she doesn't have a job and that is her choice. i already offered to subsidise her council tax cos she doesn't qualify for council tax benefit cos its based on household income and i have a decent salary. i was gonna offer to subsidise her for gas over winter but now don't want to. i shouldn't have to pay cos she chooses not to work while i work my ass off. she's talking about going travelling later in the year. she owes me 80 quid and always says in meetings about keeping her side of the road clean. how is owing money and talking about spending a bomb on travel keeping your side of the road clean?
the kitchen, which is tiny, is at the level of clutter where its starting to impact my motivation to try and cook. not good given how i feel right now, my stomach has shrunk so much and i've not even been trying to restrict my food intake, but it means i can't make up for not having dinner by eating more at breakfast and lunch.
i'm going to talk to her but i'm already so upset its hard not to sound confrontational.
i was so tired on friday but thinking about her made me unable to sleep, then wake up at 6am and not be able to get back to sleep. i took a zopiclone and slept til half 2.