Eveleivibe
Ex-Bluelighter
Wishing you all the best and positive vibes 
"Think positive and it'll be positive"
Evey

"Think positive and it'll be positive"
Evey
Although I swear I will never shoot up, after reading all his experiences I KNOW I will never shoot up. His anxiety and panic experiences jumped right off the page...awful.
You know w0w, once you get a good year or two clean and sober, your story would be a powerful motivating force to tell to young addicts as a way to help them avoid the pitfalls of addiction instead of needing to experience them. The field of addiction is often forgiving of felons who have quality sobriety... you never know... you may end up working in the field and putting your hell-on-earth story to good use helping others.
Thank you everyone for the support.
I am feeling much, much, better.
I will soon be stepping off the Kratom!
I am just so glad I am no longer shooting dope, RC's, anything!!
It's been one hell of a ride, I will tell you that.
I have also been off ALL benzos for almost 4 days now!!
Hanging in there. I'm running low of kratom but I feel like I need to get off it soon anyways. I have been experiencing a lot of anxiety before I dose, I know it's just in my head.
Hanging in there. I'm running low of kratom but I feel like I need to get off it soon anyways. I have been experiencing a lot of anxiety before I dose, I know it's just in my head.
I'm in a very similar situation my friend. Only difference is I was doing an RC called furanylfentanyl... began with 200ug dose that would make me feel invincible.. iv rush was out of this world. However it didn't take long to build insane tolerance, to the point that I would shoot a gram at a time every 2hrs just to keep the kick away. No high at all, with a gram shot of bloody fentanyl!
Needless to say, the kicks are draconian. I'm barely making it, sitting in a hot bath most of the day. And since it's a very new chemical, there isn't any data online about how long this will go on before I start getting better. I wish you all the best, pm me if you need anything or just someone to talk to