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Alcoholism Thread V. ti martwonies

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I dont know man, I remeber how I felt when I tripped it was great and I felt good but years later when my mind "opened" it became a horrible place where I would never want to, but often do, reopen.
 
I woke up 30 minutes ago and stated drinking Special Brew.

I wish I didn't feel this way.

I didn't even bother turning up to work today, but I think I've got away with it.

I feel so down alkl the time.

This shit has to end.
 
Ugh crap, I have to go out with all of my colleagues tonight for "end of financial year drinks". It'll be awkward to say the least; as I'm not terminally ill or driving home it'll be impossible to avoid drinking without being ostracised... whooo Australian drinking culture! That said everyone else will be tipsy after a few drinks and I'll spend the whole time looking forward to going home to the bottle of scotch waiting there 8)
 
belarki said:
whooo Australian drinking culture!
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QFE 8) :(

This is the main thing standing in the way of me quitting drinking forever.
Anyone who thinks I'm joking, well, isn't Australian!

belarki, any chance you could feign sickness to get out of drinking?? There are some nasty cold/flu's going round at the moment you know ;)
You don't HAVE to drink, remember that.

Last night was the first night I haven't had a drink in about 2 weeks. Hardly slept a wink, I'll tell ya that much :X

Also, in Australia, we have a charity thing called "Dry July" in which people don't drink any alcohol for the month of July, and in doing so raise money for adult cancer patients.
Considering giving it a shot...pun intended.
But we've got quite a few family functions on in July, and it's impossible to get through one of my family's parties without drinking unless you're pregnant, and even then it's hardly an excuse to not have half a glass of champagne 8)
 
I go to AA meetings all the time ( 3-5 weekly) and my treatment centers aftercare. I haven't had a drink in about a week. I am guilty of buying a scotch after class at a restaurant. I enjoyed it. A lawyer told me that if Alcohol was a Scheduled drug it would be a CIII. I belive in a higher power. I just don't like it when people in AA preach the book to you. A lot of the time they run people off by jumping all over the newcomer. I gotta admit I love reading the stories in the back of the AA book. Theirs one that talks about a doctor who had a bad drug problem, and alcohol problem. I can relate a lot to his story. Just remember that before the program can work you have to admit that you are powerless over booze. At first I didn't think I had a problem, but when I started to drink to pass out that's when I knew I have a problem. Some church's think your going to hell because you have a drinking problem, those people are so full of shit! I know my own personal higher power would like to see me do good, and won't punish me if I slip. It's all about your own connection with god!!! happy spiritual hunting my friends!! It works if you work it, and it wont if you don't!!(<-we say that after every meeting :-))
 
damn i was gunna be going for a week alc free
thursday would be a week
my friend came by and was like you wanna get smashed tommorow afternoon?

damn
alcohol
 
That's ok mate. It's been a while since I did longer than a couple of days without booze! Just coz you got smashed it's not your mates fault. We are the ones with the problem. Just try and pick yourself up mate.

I'm on about 6 hours since my last drink and trying to make a go of it even though there's a bottle in my cupboard. Just try and take it one day at a time. That's what I'm doing tonight.
 
LaserHosen said:
n3ophy7e, can you say something like "I got into the habit of drinking too often so I've decided to abstain altogether for a few months"?
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Nope, not possible. Trust me, they wouldn't accept it as a reason for not drinking, or they wouldn't take me seriously.

My family has minimal respect for me, for no real reason at all.
It's because I was "different" as a kid, and always wanted to do things my way. But because it was always the "different" way, I was always getting in trouble for it, i.e. for being myself, compared to 4 other perfect children 8)
So my family have always just thought I was a "bad person".
Still to this day they don't respect me as an adult.

LaserHosen said:
Just try and take it one day at a time. That's what I'm doing tonight.
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Good plan mate :)
Let me know how you're going <3
 
That sucks n3ophy7e, but I bet your siblings aren't as perfect as you say. I think all humans are a bit flawed, myself no exception. We are usually selfish and greedy by nature, unless you're Nelson Mandela or Mother Theresa or something.

^That was a bit of a hippyish comment, but I'm sat listening to some Fleet Foxes amd Townes Van Zandt so I suppose I'm in a bit of a thoughtful mood!

8 hours without a drink and I am feeling shitty, but getting loads of water down me so I'm heading in the right direction. :\
 
Think I've been through about 4 litres of water. Am feeling proper depressed now. Hopefully this the low point and I'll start feeling better soon. :(
 
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keep it up LH.

I agree with you LH... and to n3ophy7e I bet your siblings aren't as perfect as Mum and Dad seem to think they are.

Our families are very important but they aren't us. And sorry if this seems harsh but if you don't want to drink around them you won't, it's an excuse we give ourselves that we can't "fit in" if we don't drink...

hell I'm very guitly of this...Sunday night after almost 3 days sober I was "forced" to drink...yeah right "forced"...I took the shot and downed it with the rest of everyone there. And all it took was about 30 seconds of "Come on quiting is for loseres." and I had to make up for all of those 3 sober days in 5 hours. And you know what for the second time in my life I didn't go to work yesterday because I was unable to function...until i had another drink.

And with this weekend starts a good month of non stop planned parties...I'm not sure how strong i am going to be or even how strong I want to be...another excuse...
 
The sweat is pissing out of me now. I feel so horrible. It's so hot in here. Alcoholism sucks. I need someone to talk to, but it's 3 a.m. I'm going to find an AA chat room. I still haven't had a drink so that is good. :(
 
Ryka I didn't go into work at all on Monday. I just made some excuse. I can't even remember what excuse it was, as my short-term memory is that bad with my drinking. I think I said I was at the doctors. Luckily I got away with it I think.
 
Not doing too well. Feel so depressed at the moment. I can't have a cold shower as the temperature control is a bit dodgy on my shower. I need to get it fixed at some point.

I'm gonna have to use the half a bottle I have stashed away in the morning I think as I will be shaking in a few hours time. I will take some paracetamol and continue to drink water through the night. I must have put away about 4.5 litres of water now but still feeling very dehydrated.
 
I don't really know what to say except that you are not alone.

For some reason I can't accept your firend request right now...not sure if it's the Greenlighter thing or my internet connection.
 
Yeah I'm a greenlighter too so when I tried to PM you it wouldn't let me. So I added you as a friend hoping that it would allow me PM's. No worries mate. I'm just fed up with being an alchy. I'm at step 1. I now know what's wrong with me.
 
LaserHosen said:
Not doing too well. Feel so depressed at the moment. I can't have a cold shower as the temperature control is a bit dodgy on my shower. I need to get it fixed at some point.

I'm gonna have to use the half a bottle I have stashed away in the morning I think as I will be shaking in a few hours time. I will take some paracetamol and continue to drink water through the night. I must have put away about 4.5 litres of water now but still feeling very dehydrated.
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Hang in there mate. You're probably hot partly because it is fucking boiling here today! Try and remember your current feelings are temporary and things can and probably will improve.
 
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