guineaPig said:
and here we go. i purposely spent all my money.
i can't buy alcohol until friday.
here's to a week w/o sleep.
I feel your pain GP.
I've been a pretty bad alcoholic for just over a year, and it's really starting to take a toll on my health. I've decided to quit, I'm just sick and tired of, well, being sick and tired.
It's a bit of a catch22 because I only drink to numb the endless throughstreams of worry and doubt that run through my head constantly, also I've needed dental work (serious) for the past year, and haven't been able to financially cut it. So I spend 8 hours at work in agony because of my teeth, also anxious because of all of the pain and no insurance/money to deal with it. So when I get home I just want a few hours of "no pain time" so I can unwind just enough to wake up and do it all over again. Not to mention the bruxism I've been experiencing from the sleep anxiety, every morning I wake up to the most awful pain in my already brittle teeth because I've been have nightmares and grinding the shit out of my teeth.
I've decided I can't do it anymore, now that I have all of my meds available to me, and dental work scheduled (their letting me finance an 8000usd dental charge, out of sheer luck), I'm giving up the hooch.
I've tried this 3 times in the past 6 months, usually lasts a week, and than I just go right back to it. Usually the pain in my mouth, sometimes the pain in my heart. I think the biggest factor is you can't walk down the fucking street without at least seeing ONE advertisement for an alcohol product. That's the equivolent of a clean and sober recovering heroin addict seeing ads for morphine whenever he walked down the street. We live in a fucked up culture.
Definitely glad to hear your cutting down GP, I was averaging a half-pint to a pint of wild turkey (100) a day for some time, then I switched over to beer (probably the best thing I could have done), got used to that, than made it personal policy only to be a single 24 ounce at the bar down the road so I wouldn't be tempted to just get lobotomized drunk. It's probably the hardest thing I've ever had to taper.
I'm going to try to make to week two, wish me luck.