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[etherealserial]

Idk any of what you just said

But I trust you?

Idk I have fibro and my mom will write me scripts. She's not an idiot tho so not anything I want

Sober is where it's at

 

[Captain.Heroin]

You're going to let him do that to you again?

hopey, hopey.... where do I begin

it's not like either of them have a choice. reality just ah... ahh.... happens and then you accept it or you don't


and us koolkids like to work on acceptance and meditate to buddha or worship satan, or something non-conformist cool like that

 

[etherealserial]

I just ate pork and two cookies.

Fuck.

I'll never be the same. Cookies man.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

Idk any of what you just said

But I trust you?

Idk I have fibro and my mom will write me scripts. She's not an idiot tho so not anything I want

Sober is where it's at

hypnotics are like

insomnia benzos

which is what I REALLY NEED and TOTALLY KINDA FUCKED UP for myself so I have to go real gentle on them now 8(

i was taking like 4x a hypnotic dose to little effect (xanax tolerance NEVER got that bad for me)

 

[Captain.Heroin]

I just ate pork and two cookies.

Fuck.

I'll never be the same. Cookies man.

home made or store bought? either way good choice i love cookies

fuck i might need butter and milk and then i can make mashed potatoes and cookies and drink milk with them and just get REALLY HUGE

my fave are chocolate chip cookies homemade with dark brown sugar (I don't even buy white sugar TRIGGERED!!!)

 

[etherealserial]

Hmm. I feel like my tolerance is always high no matter what. I always need more

I just ate another cookie. His mother is such a bitch. Baking. Wtf

 

[THECATINTHEHAT]

All true junkies know that the hypnotic benzos are where it's at(y)

 

[etherealserial]

home made or store bought? either way good choice i love cookies

fuck i might need butter and milk and then i can make mashed potatoes and cookies and drink milk with them and just get REALLY HUGE

my fave are chocolate chip cookies homemade with dark brown sugar (I don't even buy white sugar TRIGGERED!!!)

Homemade. Like white chocolate cranberry oatmeal cookies. They're SO GOOD and I admit I have zero self control. And also no vodka or drugs. So cookies it is. Honestly her cookies ruined me after baby.

 

[etherealserial]

So yeah I teach 7th grade math now. Gonna be super hungover tomorrow. Also working *after* we put Sasha down. I can't separate work and home stuff.

Help me.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

All true junkies know that the hypnotic benzos are where it's at(y)

oh god yes

i'm dreaming of like the last four temazepam capsules I had... and how just ONE would be *GUSHES*
those beautiful capsules I NEEDS YOU COME BACK I'M SO SORRY I ATE 'EM ALL
that nasty yellow flurazepam powder so bitter so long lasting...
IV MIDAZOLAM MOST PEACEFUL EVER and fentanyl yuckypoo

 

[Captain.Heroin]

So yeah I teach 7th grade math now. Gonna be super hungover tomorrow. Also working *after* we put Sasha down. I can't separate work and home stuff.

Help me.

oh that's awesome

i would probably fail 7th grade math i'm so brain burnt from .. stuff

water's boiling for tea... lord help me if this tea doesn't help

 

[THECATINTHEHAT]

IV midazolam is pure amnesia, had that a couple of years back for an endoscopy.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

you wouldn't be the first BL teacher I've heard of btw iirc

i am so looking for tea bags like this is so stupid.... so many xanax bars i shouldn't be so stingy to myself

 

[etherealserial]

Give in to the power of the tea. Iirc

Yeah i mean I'm pretty chill. The litty teacher

 

[THECATINTHEHAT]

I'm also struggling not to have a little taste of a 'xanax' bar, fuck insomnia (it's 5.30am here).

 

[Captain.Heroin]

IV midazolam is pure amnesia, had that a couple of years back for an endoscopy.

it's so fucking peaceful I wish I would have never come out of that shit

if the anaesthesiologist was me they'd wish they'd have just pushed me to an OD that shit was pure fire

i doubt i'll have such a peaceful end to my life sadly

 

[etherealserial]

12:30 here. Have to get up at 6. Blehhh I am not a morning person

Tried to wake him and it didn't work

 

[Captain.Heroin]

I'm also struggling not to have a little taste of a 'xanax' bar, fuck insomnia (it's 5.30am here).

lol it's only 2130 here

tea is brewing

pork chop ready... lost food interest because legit hate brain functioning

i can't believe neither of us hit each other up we're both playing it cool

this is some weird ass next level shit and i'm not prepared

and also can't grow feelings LOL i actually like the anti-feelings

anti-feelings

 

[THECATINTHEHAT]

Nah man, running away from your feelings just makes you sicker.

That's not to say it isn't sometimes required as a defence method in the short run.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

12:30 here. Have to get up at 6. Blehhh I am not a morning person

Tried to wake him and it didn't work

aww

he probably in that REM sleep

make sure he's breathing

but you say he snores so you probably know he's breathing alright

I'm not a morning person either unless I do drugs then I'm like "lol what time is it?"

it also helps if I get ZERO hours of sleep, then it's kind of just like eternal night to me.

most people get cranky w/o sleep. I have gone... ew... 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, and 7 days of no sleep before YAY CPT GO ME i get a ribbon in STUPIDITY